Chapter #006 of 2011

Currently , time nw is 1155pm and im still nt sleeping when theres skwel tmr .

Okayy , im already tired nw . So im only goinna post a bit abt my life these few days .

While , last friday planned to go bugis but due of the shortage of the time , we went Novena only for strolling , window shopping . Denn went to the new hospital in Yishun which is not like a hospital . Denn yesterday , which is Saturday , planned again , to go bugis . Denn , wth , my family die die wann me to follow them balek kampong . Andd fck, i missed my chance of meeting my boyfie again . OMG , i really dunnoe hw many times ive paitaw-ed him already . Daamn it , im very sure he's mad nw . Andd as for adeqq , he doesnt seem to understand me . Soo yaa , say goodbye nw . He wanted me to change to much andd now there you go . We are no more closed fwens ? Jst class/skwelmates ? Aitez denn . Since this is wad u wanted , u cann have it .

Time checked ; 1239am !!

Im off to sleeep ~ byeees ! <3 ♥

Chapter #005 of 2011

Heyyaw !

currently got nothing much to post , as im watching titanic . hehe , you jump , i jumpe . aww .. hehe ~ ♥

jyeaa , indeed its romantic . Unfortunately , i couldnt n didnt celebrate valentine's day and i received nothing while the other couples got sumthings from their partners . aww .. ;(

But i dun care about all that , whats most is just that Qamarul Arifin and me will last till eternity . =DD

I dun care what people wanna say about him , about us . As long as he love me , cares for me , and appreciate me thats already fine . With all that stays , i will always love him no matter what . I dun care , i dun mind if we dont meet up every single day . i dun mind nt having valentine's day wid him . Because i know , not only on valentine's we cann be as sweet as others . =))

Will always love you bby♥

Chapter #004 of 2011

               SAYAAAAAAAAAANGG ♥ !

OMG , im soo fucking in love♥ ! hahah . I soo soo fucking love my boyf laaaaa :DD 

haahs , okayy2. im kindaa bored actually-.-

Boyfie is nw outside bz wid fwens , prfft . Im all alone again tonight . But nvm , still i gt to hear his voice jst nw n ltr(hoping so). OMGOMG , i swear im in looovee ! hahaha ! omg , tsk . miaang nyeeerrh . -.- YA ALLAH !

haaahs , okayy2 , wadever itis , i will still love you okayy , Qamarul Arifin. :)

Qamarul Arifin will be my last one ppl ! 

pssstpssst; i miss boyfie soo muuch ;(

Chapter #004 of 2011

6days past , and im yet to post a thing .

Hhmm .. well , ive gt ntg much to say actually . My life dis few days was alright . A bit of conflicts is still there .  Currently im attached wid Qamarul Arifin ♥ !

Ohh boyy , im soo soo in love wid him . Its already 1wk since we're together .

We went on, on 31 of January 2011 .

Andd damn , fucking shit !

No every month has the date of 31st . hahaha . 

But nvm .

 I promise to myself and also to him that we will last long andd i'll make him as my last one .

 I wanna show him that not all gerls are the same . 

I wanna change him . By looking at him , ppl's first impression of him is mat rep .

Like he is now .

But eventhough thats him , he is still in 1 of the secondary school , taking GCE O-Levels this year !

 It clearly shows that he cann be want he want if he word really hard . OMFG ! I soo soo in love wid him , I SWEAR !

Nvr came across a guy like him . Who's really so straight forward . But still , theres always sumthing bringing it down . Adeqq asked me dis question, " do u think he is for u ?"

omg, dis question is STUUCK ! is he really for me ?

I really think he cann change , he has his future . Guess i just have to think thousands times again ? Hhmm ..



WADEVER IT IS , I WILL ATILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AITEZ HUBBY . U WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONE AND ONLY , U WILL STAY BE MY LAST WANT ANDD I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX LIKE ALWAYS AITEZ . MUUACKZXC !

Chapter #003 of 2011

Damn its february nw . andd im nt updating my blog . gosh , i hate making promises or plans sumtimes . haiz .

Aitez2 , its feb nw , and its like another 7more days left ? yaayy ! heehs . cnt wait yaaaw .

But sadly , i have this strongg feeling tat says , my sweet 16 goinna be a bad one .

I dun wish tat to happen . Nvr . No one does anyway .

Currently am having sum prob wid mum . She soo like *toooot* ! Why cnt she jst understand the situation ? i told her my whereabouts , i told her my plans , i told her everything ! Yet ! She is still beingg soosoo fucking sarcastic wid me . WTH mother ? i dun wish to be a rude child . no one wans to be 1 .

 Guess all i have to do now , to avoid more unwanted things , i shall shut up and do my own things . Im goinna heck care wid u, mother . till u strt to show me ur care again . So dun blame me for anything anymore nw . Just wanted to be good when u gave me the advanced bdae present that i wanted all this while . Yes , im so thankfull for that . But see wad u've done . Haiz mother , i seriously dunnoe wad to say anymore . Hhmm ..

Every of my post will have a happy ending . I have to keep this feeling in me , myself again .
But nvm , im used to it already , eveyone is treating me the same . Mother and adeq . Say or do wadever u wanna say or do , cuz thats u . ure jst being urself . seating down , talking to u for few hrs still the same . no words or action seemed to change u . So its obvious thats who u are . No one cann change u . We'll jst have to hold on to the pain that NO ONE noes like we used to .

Im nt goinna post all this emotional things on facebook . Of course i wann adeq and mother to noe wad im feeling all this while . But i dun wann adeq to say tat im jst attracting attention andd im telling ppl tat im nt in a wrong by posting all those emotional post . Blogg has been my best partner to share problems wid . Eventhough u cant advise me but u helped me . In controlling my feelings . Eventhough its still deeply pain , at least theres some relieveness .

I hope my other fwens could help me upp again . Be a cheerful and active gerl like i always do . I used to say ntg cann bring me down . But nw i guess , u brought me real down till i lost my hope . And this is wan u call fwens ? u once asked me , scold me in front of the ppl .

Wad do u take me as ? Im nt ur dog or maid u noe . i do have feelings too . In fact every single thing in the world has their own feelings . I jst simply dunnoe wad to say anymore . Im jst too sad tat i have to lead my life like this . Why cant anybody really understand wad im feeling , wad im goinng through nw ?

I dun nid ur sympathy , but jst ur respect . thats wad HUMAN do . respect each another . Now , im always relaying on the things around me to cheer me upp . All i left that cann cheer me up is my classmates , sum skwelmates . Strongly from lala , afiqah n dearest bby Qamarul Arifin .

I've promise n swore to myself that i will treasure u , love u , and be wid u as far as i cann . I promise u that . I swear u that . Nvr wanna lose u . I will always love u no matter wad . Andd i'll show u that nt all gerls are the same bby . Loveyouualways Qamarul Arifin . ♥

U CANN COUNT ON ME LIKE 1 2 3 AND I'LL BE THERE :)