Heyy , today i finally got to meet ahcap . But sadly , eventhough its my precious moment, it still hurts me lots .
Whatever that hadd just happened just now is still runningg fresh in my mind . I just love him so much n wans him for myself now n later, forever . He may cann nvr be mine .. if they were to last looongg . =((
Yeaa , ahcap is att . But yet we are not behavingg like a fwen . It really do hurts me alot when whatever we do has sumthingg got to do wid her gf . tkkn akuu nkk hancurkan kebahagiaan orgg kann ? -.- Soo i guess its best if i go . Its okayy if im hurt by u here . Cuz this heart in me hadd always been hurt by others .
Everytime im wid ahcap especially when there's sumthingg gotta do wid his gf , ive always put on a fake smile . Andd of course it hurts alot ! Andd im like seriously abt to cry just nw ! Andd finally the tears are dropped nw . =(( I just dun understand why its hard for me to get sumone who i really love so much . Cuz each time i love sumbody , that sumbody will be attached wid sumone else . kamarul tat i loved is att , Dion tat i love is att , andd nw ahcap . -.- wtf . when will all diz endd ? Ahcap says im still youngg n have a longg way to go n wans me to concentrate wid my studies n dun think abt relationships stuff . Doesnt he understand wads "come naturally" means ? Its inevitable u see .
haiz , but nvm . i'll suffer again diz time . I guess my life is meant to not to be happy . My eyes now are hurtingg too . no more water ? haish ! -.-
But wadever it is , today's my day tat im tryingg to treasure positively . I cant kiss u as much as i want , i cnt hug u as much as i want andd i also cnt love u as much as i want . But u'll still be in me . Andd im still soo happy tat i met u just
niwaez , End-Of-Year exams are just around the corner . Andd i wanna be promoted to sec4NA .
Need to strt study already . Need to be stronger . Time nw is 1014pm . Andd im off . Till next time . byee ~