sleepless night

Time checked : 1145am .

Another sleepless night and still staringg at the screen . Wonderingg when will all this endd .

I hate it when everything that we wanted never could we get . Specially when u cant get everyone that u love . Not getting whatever things we wanted is nt as worse as tryingg to get the person that we love , or worse, love badly . Currently listening to jb songs and chatz wid umairah cuzy n dion .

Omg , without noticingg , i fell into the traps where i fell for dion . But sadly , i cnn nvr get dion . Youu see, everyone tat i wanted i cnt get . But those who im nt interested in , is infornt of me . omg .

Soo i guess , since exams are jst around the corner , i'll jst forget abt all this and stay strongg n focus . Maybe all this love thingy are nt meant for me yet ? hmm ..

Well , in skwel , ntg much happen . Tomorrow , teacher's day rehersal !

Andd problems with the guitars for naz's n amirul's .  -__-"

waaaahh ! Wonderingg what's goingg to happen tmr . Hope everything will go smoothly tmr . =))

Andd good luck to all my band mates , all the way (the)young devoters ! =))

Hope we dnt stop here TYD .  =))

UpUpAllTheWaaayyy ! ~ 

OMG

omg , blog mati . -__-

This is where i hate, blog mati ! haha .

Well hello, blog mati. haha ! okayy daa , stopp it . -_-

Long time nvr update cuz, busy n lazy . haahs ~ Anw, yesterday was Amirul Asyraf 15 Birthday .

Had lots of fun eventhough for few hrs at geylangg . Meet at 630 but end upp at 7 denn board 966 . haaha . Sampai aderh orgg say tat org yng gy malay dance lagy cepat dari kte . HAHA ! haiz , guys . 1hr or nt even 1hr oso, still can sleep . haiyoo . Reached geylangg at abt 8 dhen go eat, jln2 tgk baju raye . Dhen took cab wid lala back home. =))

Currently, chat wid lala, umairah cuzy, zarf andd zann(haha, padahal  boleyh bbl ehh kt umaa) .

In a while, cuzy's comingg ! =)) Now, im hungry ! thirsty ! tired ! sleeeeepy ! jst nw didnt wake up for sahuuur !  Haiz . Dunnoe wadd to post already .

Soo, till here dhenn .

Just wait for another episode aitez . =))

Episode 99  :D

a big different year . =((

the young uncle that always put joy in my life

Yesterday was a very tiringg day . I didnt get much rest . 6am till 2am no napp .

Reached home at abt 11+pm . Couldnt sleep till 2am . Yesterday was also a very sad dayy till everyone cnt control . Includingg me . =(  In skwel ngaa happy2 audition den mum called daa down gyle denn need to rush to toa payoh . sampai tk sempat nkk ambek bagg .  i was freakingg sad andd my tears just cnt stopp rollingg down my cheek . Well, diz year goinna be a very big diff year . My nenek keep on askingg, "aperh agaknyerh busu tgh buwat skgg ? " =( sadd huhh . feel like cryingg already seyh nw ! ohh my gosh ! 14mnths . very longg . im really missing him nw . Every nite b4 goingg to sleep, nenek will talk to me abt my 1and only beloved uncle wid tears in her eyes . Wonderingg hw would hari raya diz yr would be . 14mnths, im goinna miss my uncle . =(

 i wanna visit him as often as i cnn wid my granmother . but i know i cnt .

there's only 2questions tat will be repeatingly asked by my nenek . andd tat is , " aperh agaknyerh busu ngaa bikin ? " andd " mcm manerh  entah hari raye tahun ni nnt ?  " 

 i'll nt be able to go to my nenek house at toa payoh for 14mnths . Im goinna miss toa payoh atmosphere, uncle's toa payoh beautiful house , and toa payoh neighbours . But wads most, im goinna miss u, beloved uncle  . 14mnths, anitink cnn happen . Well i just goinna take good care of nenek as he put hopes on me to takecare of nenek for him . i'll promise u uncle . me either dun wan u to regret twice . dun wann the same thingg happen again like wad really happened wid late granfather n u .

i dun wan banana fruit 2times, haaahs ~ but im here will always doakan busu di bulan suci dan mulia ini . Semoga allah berikan busu kekuatan dan kesabaran dan rahmat.  aqilah will always remember u andd ur advices .

Love u much

 as my uncle . =))

To my fwens , sry i go off earlier tat day .

From today onwards jgk, nenek akuu daa tinggal nann akuu .

Andd akuu jgk tkleyh lpk2 slalu like we always do .

Work ? I dun think im allowed too .

14mnths bebb .

Its more than a year . =(

Soo, i hope u guys understand yarhs . =))

missingg u :((

Now time is 2am sharp .
I hate midnitez, cuz i'll gt bored andd start to read people's blog, view people's fb . Every page i click, there's always at least a few pages on them andd their loved ones . OMG ! im soo down . i miss my past soo badly . i miss nt beingg solo . i miss beingg loved . i miss beingg hugged . i miss otp wid sumone . akuu rindu laa sgt2 dimanje dann dibelai oleh seseorangg jejaka .  i miss everythingg in the past . Goshh, hw i wish i could rewind it. :((  But with a new guy of course, i guess ?
I know people will say its not the time yet . But we're humans too . "Yound kids" like me too have feelings like YOU "adults" . We do sometimes need to be loved dann dimanja . i miss all those . But wadd cann i do ? i dun wanna be goingg around findingg guys rite ? nonono, of course nt . i wanna end all this . i've promised to myself to end all this until i reached out of silingg maybe ? haha ! idk ..

Heckcare, nw im freakingg cold. Freezinggg ! buuuur ! haha .
Just nw went to witness the fireworks at wdlnds area only . It was funn, great though . We went to the town but jams all over . Den gt fed-upp, see at wdlnds only . haha . Denn go take my bro fron YOV denn reached home . Rabaak ehh ? NAtional day also my bro need to go work . haiyooo . Tmr plakk, will be goingg to JB wid cuzy . Andd my house, there's no one home .  Andd im bored rite nw, currently havingg a conversation wid afiq and jinn . I think naz is bz for nw. Cuz she's nt as hyper as she is at this time . Lala, i hvnt chat wid lala for quite a longg time in msn . Maybe she's bz too . But ohh well, its okayy . My eyes are nw closingg, soo i guess its time for me to go to sleep . Soo till here, nitez ! =)

damn tired -_-

Im soosoosoo freakingg tired today .

I didnt get much rest at home as im busy with outdoors .

Andd EYEBAGS ! urgh ! hate it lots mann !

Yesterday morningg in school, received a text from my mum . A shockingg text though . That my granny was admitted in Tan Tock Seng Hospital . Whyy shockingg cuz she nvr nvr fall sick b4 . She always look strongg . Eventhough her legs are not that strongg . Lucky yesterday got half-day school . I rushed back home andd rush rush rush, Reached ttsh, get to see my grandmother for awhile dhen must sit downstairs until night when its time for us to go back home. -_- Freakingg hospital ! Menyusahkan akuu jerqk . I wanna complain seyh ! :(( Only 4people cann go andd see patient . Dhen if any of my aunties or other grandmother come, my cuzins, bro andd me have to go down. Its like turn by turn to visit my granny. :(( Saaad eyhhh ?? Haiz, sue u hospital ! Like *tututu* ! But lucky today my nenek gt discharged . No need to wait turn by turn, go down upp down upp .

Very leceh . Thankfully my nenek is nw alilbit fine . But still on medication . old peoples, its kinda normal though . Especially for someone who's in my grandmother age . Standard laa ehh .

Ohh well.

Todayy, pagy2 daa kua. haha, tired seyh .

Yesterday reached home at 11+ . Todayy, reached home also at 11+.

Tired seyh. Soosoosoo freakingg tired . My eyes are now abt to be closingg soon . haha . Aniwaez, todayy in the morningg went to the hardcourt for some concerts . Dhen afternoon at abt 4 we went to jamm our song for teacher's day at yishun . Dhen proceed peninsula, company lala buy some stuff. Dhen tao payoh meet my cuzzins and my one andd only beloved granny. Dhenn nw home sweet home. =)) phew . haaahs . Thanks lala for the meal at magic WOK . haha . Sorry didnt call u when i reached tao payoh, akuu lupe ! haha . Daa meet cuzy kt tao payoh interchange dhen i forgot. :D

Now time 130am, dun wanna text u cuz maybe i might be disturbingg u. So if u read this, sry ehh lala, haha. akuu lupe nkk text .

Hmm .. Really hadd soosoo much funn with fwens andd families .
Thnks guys for makingg the dayy soo funn. without u guys, theres gt no all this. Appreciate it much. =))
Till here, nitez. Byee ~

unexpected

Todayy, hadd some unhappy things goingg on between me fie AGAIN.  -__-
Just dun understand why she cant admit her mistakes , till today . She said i mepek , i stepp gerek . Bile akuu stakat ckp yngg die prasann . She didint wanna admit when she herself said tat right in my face infront of everybody . I dun mind if she dun wanna admit her mistakes . I lovingg it in fact . =) Cuz whenever she said sry, she nvr mean it . Thousands times of sry, thousands times of repeatingg mistakes . Andd i cnt believe she cried just nw . haha ! Didnt expect that to happen though . haaahs . But nvm , let her continue as im lovingg it ! =) I hate fwens that always put shame on their own fwens . I truly hate .

Ohh well , dropping subject.

Todayy at MacD kecoooooh ! haha . Funny + Funn = ? mat jogangg stepp gerekk nann nenek ketiak berbuluh cam monyet . haha . While eatingg, there's a free show . People behind eatingg also cann stand up and see without helpingg . Freakingg singaporeans . haiyaaai . But it was kindaa funny though . haha ! After that rwent home . Tomorrow national day . Tomorrow also must wake up early fetch adorable as she's paiseyh dunnoe whyy . Currently chattingg wid naz, fie  andd umairahcuzy.  =)  Thats all for today, till here . Byee ~

To adorable nazirah , chill andd be patience with ur life okayy . Handle it with care . HAHA ! =)

Ngee Ann Polytechnic

Todayy went to Ngee Ann poly that has no different with si ling secondary school.  -.-

But it was funn though . Otw there , in the bus , mira was sittingg quietly . But nt in the theatre andd back to school on the bus . She made some speech of "prefect" english , on the bus . All the way from Ngee Ann , she just cnt stopp makingg speech . At Ngee Ann , we gt to see other school"s art work andd stuff like that . Hidayah looked small sized person . But she dnt eat like a small sized people . She was like a year livingg food .  Keep on takingg more food when there's still food in her mouth .

Even before we board the bus , she ran andd take more .  -.- But ohh well , its funn though . Laughingg through out the whole thingg . But not when i reached woodlands and i found out somethingg that make me feel reaaaallly daamn jealous ! haha ! yes , i am . She hadd done it . But not yet me . I wanna do it . But im just scared of the painn . im afraid i might not take the painn . But im still thinkingg of doingg it or nt . Should i or should i nt ? haha . SHOULD ! ^^

=)

Heyyaa , todayy was a funn dayy . Beingg laughingg through out the dayy . Haha .
School was okayy, jst nw hadd a SS test . Teacher jst cnt stopp staringg at me . Like as if im copyingg .
After that went to eat at MacD denn go library denn dewann denn baruu home ! heeeeehs ~ =)
Well lets talk about afiqah for today . Yeaa, kinda pity her sometimes . But sometimes also she jst need to feel the feelingg of beingg smaaack ! Jst nw my fwens had a talk wid her . Her face , yaa allah ! Soo innocent ! HAHA ! Sometimes when i go wid Lala, sue andd all, without her wid me , i feel soo wronged . Cuz for leavingg her alone halfway . Easy say , jst nt like before . But if i were to go back in my past , my life would be soo damn boringg . Andd i'll an anti-social person . Never wish to be like that . But well , at least i talk to her , spend time wid her in school . Since we cnt after school . Soo , there's some fairness there . =)

Tomorrow , will be going to the Ngee Ann Poly for an art exhibition .
Wuuuuhuuu ! Seroonooook !  ^^
See, hw lucky art students are . Dapat gy trip2 . HAHA ! Wonderingg wadd D&T students doingg , potongg kayuu ? haha ! LOL . Potongg laa krngg sampai jadi aperh ? Sampann ehh ? LOL . mepekk siaak . Okayy , jkjk d&t students .
Okayy , im tired nw . Andd goingg to sleep already . Soo yeaa , nitez !  =)

Btw, to all my fwens . Krngg tawuhh akuu knn ? Akuu suke jkjk around . It may be harsh but i nvr mean it as u'all noe . Soo, pape krngg dun take it serious cuz i was jokingg around . Didnt mean anything at all . Soo yeaa, hope u guys understand . Andd i noe u guys will . =)

mix feelings

Heyy , lets last strt off wid this week first .

This week was great . Awesome though . But nt comes to the weekends . I hate weekends . I used to love weekends lots . But sumone ruined it . ruined it damn much . Andd i hate u for that ! Guess who ? Yeaa, my mum . She jst cnt like see me havingg my own life on only saturdays ? We have sundays too rite . Sundays is for us to spend time wid families . Saturdays is fwens outingg day andd sunday is family outing day . %days of studyingg, 1day enjoy wid fwens 1day wid family . Nw thats a complete happy enjoyment week . There's always a purpose for everythingg . Still she cnt see that ? Last wekk, paitao my fwens . This week also . Paitao againn ! OMG ! I dnt wanna be looked down by my own fwens . I dun wanna be label as paitao kia . My plans were all ruined . My mum just like cnt see me happy enjoyingg my time wid fwens . She said there 5days, monday-friday for me to spend time wid fwens . Tkkn nkk gy town or go jln2 on friday after school rite ? Doesnt make sense . Haiz, lets jst forget abt my mum . She's makingg my day freakingg down .

Next week, im goinna be damn busy . For sure . Bz wid wadd ? Soo bz wid hw tat is nt done . Cuz tuesday i'll be going to the Ngee Ann polytechnic for some arts exhibition . Thursday , another art exhibition . Hw, is addingg on to my list ! Nw itself hw nt done yet . Composition, urgh . malas nyerh nkk bikin . My art still nt done . Art is actually really easy . But its just too stress when u've gt no idea at all . Thats the part i hate ! omg . Andd then next2 week, Fastingg Month ! PUAAAASE . Need to wake upp early and SHAHUR ! -.- But cnt wait for all that ! Especially Hari Raya ! fuuuuuuh ! Cant wait luhh seyh ! ^^ Dpt duit raye, boleyh spend2, shopping2 ! ^^ wuuhuuhu . tkk sabar nyerh ! =) But confirm this year wont be the same . Maybe this year my nenek raye at my house . As there some problems wid my uncle . Confirm nanges takk berlaguuu ! hahah !

Yesterday gt Nenek Timah's kenduri doa selamat . They'll go for the umrah for the second time .

Funn seyh . Dpt naek aeroplane . Dpt beli chocolate kt airport . haha . Cam kedai mamak bwk blk tkderh jual gituhh knn ? haha .

Todayy, went to the kaylong. Fun also seyh got the chance to see fresh fishes . Not only fishes . There's frogs too ! haha . best ! i stared at the frogs for quite a longg time . haha . Dunnoe why . There's of course shrimps andd many2 more. We went there cuz my dad wanted us to try eatingg an EEL . Andd its soo eeeeww . We gt to see hw the people there cuts open the eel andd into pieces . I gt to see hw they cut the frog . Im sure if u guys see it too, u'll runningg metres away . HAHA . It was soo evil ! Hidop2 ehh, drngg jst chope off their heads and den took off the skin . Very disgustingg . EEEEEWW . haha .

Well till here, i gt to do my english compo nw . If nt 1day RTU.  -.-

Soo yeaa , Byee .

Ohh yes , btw to my dearest fwens sry klaw akuu byk paitao krngg . If krngg nkk go jamming, jst go ahead . cuz bass like nt soo important cuz nt the main thing . Akuu tkk kesah . Asalkan krngg confident nann krngg nyerh position . Thats important . Sbb position krngg is the most sound people heard . Okayy, all the best . Andd hope kte dpt make it through . =))