im back postingg again , after for soo longg . i guess my bloggy is the only place where i cann share everythingg out . but how greaat would it be if youu could taalk and help me out . im suuuper hurt plus disappointed . im freakingg saad , i swear . i couldnt breathe well . my heart hurts . im like havingg heart attack . omg . after what had happened recently , i barely could discribe my own feelings . omg , hold on! he called me! ahziq :"(( its hurt to hear his voice when i cant even have him . eventhough i choose to have my own way and time first for these moment , i still dun wanna lose him . but this is life where i gotta face . i need to be strongg and let him be strongg too . he may say he'll waait . but some parts of me is fear that he'll be wastingg his time waitingg . another half of me is sayingg he's not gonna wait that longg . mainly part of me says I DUN WANNA LOSE HIM! :"((
but i dun wanna lose my fwen too . i know adeq's gonna slowly change . so do haziq . i cant stand when haziq begg and keep begging upon me . thats saad . i dun want him to be kneelingg now on me , and beggingg me . thats touchingg but im sry , ure gonna make me cry . baby , i swear i cant live without youu too . youu know how afraid am i . youu know it all . as im typingg this , tears is rollingg down hunny . i just dunnoe how to show youu that i love youu and how grateful am i to have u in my arms . despite what had happened , despite whatever shits youu been givingg me . but a promise will always still be a promise . i need a shoulder to cry on . i need sincere ears to hear me out about this . i need sincere advices . i dun have it all now .
im sincere am sorry haziq ,
youu know i love youu , youu know i wont leave youu . youu know all my promises to youu . right ?
but im just too hurt . i need my own time .
please give me space . learn how to live without me sayangg , cuz 1day i am gonna be gone .
i want youu to be happy . i dun want youu to have bad days anymore .
thats why im leavingg for now . i dun care what u did to me , its all past afterall . my history is repeatingg . u gotta understand that .
remember what i told u ? i wanna have u at the first place cuz i know and i believe that ure my man . ur the mann that my parent and me are lookingg for . youu were loyaal . youu were sincere and patience . but now , youu prove me wrongg ?
i know thats not youu . u gotta get me back to our road back . please hunny , show me somethingg again for me to be back to youu . cuz its really suupe hard now . especially when it repeats .
remember what i said ? i love youu like how a mummy loves a daddy .
how afraid were ur dad to lose ur mum , is that afraid i am to lose youu . now that things happened the same waayy , idk .. please remember your 6 promises and i'll be back . but i wont still take a while .
cuz baby , i gotta see youu once again and made a huge decision for my future too .
i hope youu understand that crucial part of mine.
iloveyouusooosooomuchhubby.
cuz baby , i gotta see youu once again and made a huge decision for my future too .
i hope youu understand that crucial part of mine.
iloveyouusooosooomuchhubby.
; brokenhearted smileeyLady(':