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i wouldnt wanna make it obvious . i got a place where i cann really let everythingg out . which only here , my bloggy . not everyone will know . cuz ive just updatingg back . here goes my life story for todaay .
topic for todaay , CONFUSED .
im just confused . thats all . thats my feelinggs now .
idk if im saad , wanna cry , wanna laugh be happy cuz i still got the hold on to him with just a lil finger instead of 2whole hands or even be maaad . Confused , thats it .
i didnt wanna forget abt u , deep down in my heart , i swear my intentions werent forgettingg abt u .
instead , this distance that ive asked is for us to see , realised and learn from whatever shits that happened in us .
when youu called , i know . ive realised that . but i just didnt wanna pick up .
cuz i want us to make use for this distance . i want youu to know and realise how hurtful it is to be all alone .
learningg how to appreciate . nvr leave yourself alone . hurtful isnt it ?
lets have our time . cuz i still see that u wanna be alone when u got ur fwens there .
its alright to be alone . but dun be alone often kaay . feel for those people who is worried about youu .
when ure not in the mood , u kept on thinkingg and stress urself up , ur fwens cant be happy seeingg u like that . so do i sayangg . we love youu . soo much infact dear .
i know every night it will hurt youu . so do i baby . it hurts me soo much . more denn u do . cuz its me who's lettingg youu to be alone , realisingg there . but i got no choice syangg . youu know i nvr wanna let u be alone . im alwaays forgivingg u and havingg u back after when u gave me all ur shits remember ? i nvr complain . or even scold youu or give u attitudes . cuz i know my baby is just stress there and need someone no matter how bad u say u wanna be alone .
yes , every night i swear i mmg nak text u . in the morningg too .
wakingg up without ur text is hurtful sayangg . but we got no choice now . i guess this is the only way for us to realise and learn .
im still sleepingg in the same "environment" .
sleepingg with teddy who keeps me safe , a picture right beside me . thats fixed . we will be back kay , i promise . trust me kaay . but just not now . not till u show me somethingg , u get me back . cuz as u know , now its hard for me to trust empty words . youu just gotta show me somethingg , and get me to believe in u , like how u did last time .
for now i just want to youu keep ur first 6promises to me . thats the first step .
1st baby , be happy always .
2nd , be yourself .
3rd , have your proper meal .
4th , stay away from gudangg and araaak .
5th , jage diri baek2 .
6th , let any lady to come in ur life if they were to exist in your life .
cuz hunny , i wont take a while . but of course sayangg , i wouldnt want youu to go for other lady . i swear sayangg . i swear :(( im just sayingg that .
i wont leave youu , i swear . im holdingg on to youu with my only 1 lil finger . please dun let that finger loose . i lovee youu soooo soo much . i swear :((
promise me baby , not give up on me . keep holdingg on to me no matter how hard it is . please sayangg . i cant live without youu too . and im sincere about this . promise me that sayangg :"(