emotional night

wow , tonight was an emotional night for me . Im a missing sumthingg ? idk .

jiwangs kedengaran . haha . Beingg listening to jiwangs songs since jst nw . wow .

Well , currently chatz wid ahcapp yngg ngaa busy buwat records -.- suro buwat 1, skgg berlambak2 . stepp maluu , stepp tknk , pastu last2 , records berlambak . -.- nii laa manusia .

Aniwaez , just nw  , dayy was great but eveningg , sux . Babi peyh China , paitao akuu . Banyakk sgt mkn babi siakk dektuhh . Last min cancel cuz fwens ask him to join them in playingg takraw . like wtf rite ? Bastard ? yeaa , indeed bastard . He's takingg revange . cuz on friday i paitao him already . haha . but heck care .

Hadd a emotional night tonight . =((
Dion called me , andd talk things emotionally .
Denn indra peyh mepekk daa strt , akuu mls nkk lyn . nkk bbl emo2 . -.-
Tbe2 terplay lagu jiwangs den strt to be jiwangs , tats its an emotional night . haha !
Chatted wid naz jst nw , daa laa emotional night , denn she recommended me a video , sad video some more . haha . Lagenda Budak Setan . Starting already like funn . Wanna watch more uhs . Okayy , time nw is 0110am . Wanna go n watch nw or i wnt have time to watch n wake upp late again tmr . -.-
Soo , nitez . =))

Forgive me. ♥

Wow , hadd kinda great dayy today . Beingg laughingg through the whole dayy . In skwel , outside skwel . haha . Andd thnks lala to for the treats just nw . Todayy skwel as per-normal , awesome , haha .

Woke upp late for skwel denn rush rush rush ! lucky ezlink card is still wid me . =)

Denn met lala den slack for awhile den go nw . Will be goingg to airport later . Send my brother for his Medann trip for 2weeks ! hmm .. goinna miss him . Next month , my turn plakk ! Go China ! Yeeppydoo ! =DD Denn , my lil bro , go Batam . haha ! -.-

Aniwaez , cant wait for friday ! haha ! Goingg out to town wid lala n her boyfie n adeqq n nazirah . yeaa .

Just reached home from "study" . -.- lmbt siaa drngg nkk sampai n strt blajar , in fact , takk blajar pnn . -.-

Forgive me mum , forgive me dad , forgive me lil&elder bro .
Forgive me nenek , forgive me fwens , forgive me everyone .
Forgive me for wadever wrong i did , Especially to mummy .
Mum seem to be very worry abt me . She's scare if i were to do stupid stuff n end upp regretingg just like my uncle . Mummy cried just nw . Cuz too worry abt me . -.-
Mummy , as im growingg , my brains are growingg too . Soo please dun worry abt me soo much . I promise to take care of myself n do good things andd not bringg any shame on our family , i promise . I noe whats good n whats bad for me . please , let me be independent . Study ? yeaa , i promise to study too . I'll try to get ur wish andd that is to see me enteringg the JCs . Just need ur support n doa here . 1December2010 is my opperation . SCAAAARYY derhh ! kayy laa , time nw is 1117pm n im tired n sleepy already. =) Soo till here . =)) Byee .

*sobsobb*

Heyy , today i finally got to meet ahcap . But sadly , eventhough its my precious moment, it still hurts me lots .

Whatever that hadd just happened just now is still runningg fresh in my mind . I just love him so much n wans him for myself now n later, forever . He may cann nvr be mine .. if they were to last looongg . =((

Yeaa , ahcap is att . But yet we are not behavingg like a fwen . It really do hurts me alot when whatever we do has sumthingg got to do wid her gf . tkkn akuu nkk hancurkan kebahagiaan orgg kann ? -.-

Soo i guess its best if i go . Its okayy if im hurt by u here . Cuz this heart in me hadd always been hurt by others .

Everytime im wid ahcap especially when there's sumthingg gotta do wid his gf , ive always put on a fake smile . Andd of course it hurts alot ! Andd im like seriously abt to cry just nw ! Andd finally the tears are dropped nw . =(( I just dun understand why its hard for me to get sumone who i really love so much . Cuz each time i love sumbody , that sumbody will be attached wid sumone else . kamarul tat i loved is att , Dion tat i love is att , andd nw ahcap . -.- wtf . when will all diz endd ? Ahcap says im still youngg n have a longg way to go n wans me to concentrate wid my studies n dun think abt relationships stuff . Doesnt he understand wads "come naturally" means ? Its inevitable u see .

haiz , but nvm . i'll suffer again diz time . I guess my life is meant to not to be happy . My eyes now are hurtingg too . no more water ? haish ! -.-

But wadever it is , today's my day tat im tryingg to treasure positively . I cant kiss u as much as i want , i cnt hug u as much as i want andd i also cnt love u as much as i want . But u'll still be in me . Andd im still soo happy tat i met u just

niwaez , End-Of-Year exams are just around the corner . Andd i wanna be promoted to sec4NA .

Need to strt study already . Need to be stronger . Time nw is 1014pm . Andd im off . Till next time . byee ~

(Y) another bad night(Y)

Today hadd a funn n tiringg day in the day . Go raya wid fwens n denn after go home , met lala for a while . Andd bla bla bla .

Wow , best huhh ? ahcap just made me cry n damn worry . I just dun understand wads in ahcap till he cant even share out . Hmm .. but nvm , i wont be like forcingg to tell me wads happeningg in him . Eventhough im his fwen , n his my fwen , but i really love him soo much . He is sumthingg to me . I love him more denn anyone else . Just cant let him go . Andd now , he wants me to forget abt him ! ='(

I still need him . He's still sumone to me no matter wadd . Andd really hope to see him outside my skwel tmr . I miss u , ahcap ! =(

hmm .. haiz , i dunnoe wad more goinna happen .

Well currently , eiss n me are ntg now . We hadd our broke upps yesterday . I just need n wants him to change his whole attiude , tats all . He called me just now n wanted me to love him back . Well , i dunnoe . Im really confuse now . Dun wanna think abt it as End-Of-Year are just around the corner .

Hmm .. Time now is 0203am .

Andd im off to sleep . Nitez readers . =)

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Heyyaa , im currently like havingg some problems here .

Lala , i noe u noe . shaaasshh kayy ? =)) Well , actually problems wid studies n personal stuffs . End-Of-Year Exams are comingg ! 2wks more to like revise . -.- Askingg some help from farihin n cuzy abg nabil .

Personal stuffs ? Let it be in the "twins sisters" oni . =)) Wow , hadd a lot of fun wid lala , eventhough in a text msges pnn , we cann still have fun as if she's beside me . i miss her . =(

Yesterday met bby kecyq , denn ejan n faizal at 888 .

Wow , kecohh . Adeqq , paitaaoo ! -.-

Todayy , goingg out later . Go raya -.- nvr endingg .

Andd tmr , outings again wid abgfanz n adeqzann n maybe meetingg lala . =))

Wow , bile maw study ? -.-

Guess , need to sacrifice 2wks without goingg for any slackings .

I wanna aim for JCs . hmm .. Cann i ? Gotta studyy ! Attitude , need to be change . Andd i need sumone to guide me ! I need indra n farihin to guide me . =(

OMG , sumpahh nenek akuu skgg irritatingg nkk mampos !

Aderh die leyh tanye akuu , " kaw kakak ke adeqq? "

"irfann abg ke adeqq?" kmk , wtf ?

Soalan mepek ttm knn ? haiz . Daa tanye , tanye lagy plakk tuhh . kwk , sumpahh siakk irritatingg .

Denn nw , tanye lagy , nkk gy raye umaa saperh ? nenek tkkn ikot boleyh ? kwk !

Nenek akuu bisingg2 , tanye2 , mk akuu irritated , beyh mrh2  akuu . siakk uhs .

haiyooii !

Time nw is 0637pm . N daddy's home already n im out .

-.-

Todayy , RTU again . -.-

Mondayy went to skwel , RTU . Tuesday nvr come skwel , no RTU . Wednesday came back skwel , RTU again ! until tat pariah say " youu again ! " -.- wtf .

Denn paitao bby again . -.- Lala bby precious also i cannot meet . haiyooii !

Left skwel at 5 . Den go home wid the twins . Miraa , 3days RTU ! haha ! Nice miraa . Goinna have fun in there ! Surely . haha . >.<

Okayy , time now is 0303am ! Andd ive got not much thingg to post soo time to sleep .

 Nitez readers .  =))  ♥♥

Sick ! Sick ! Sick !

Well heyy , Im currently not feeling very well , since yesterday . I feel like im floatingg ! -_-"

Fever is like comingg back too . My throat are hurtingg too . All these made me to have no mood to do anything . Haiz , omg .

Today went to skwel , in the morning already my history teacher called me out . Andd ask why i nvr attend class . -__-" Denn talk2 , den i kena RTU again ! walaaaneeyh ! haiyoooi ! Im afraid my RTU will be on thursday andd tat is tmr , n im meetingg bby kecyq tmr too ! -___-" fuck those RTUs .

My eyes are now tearing andd my headd are floatingg high . That also means , i cant take it anymore , Soo yeaa , till here . =))

♥♥♥♥

Time checked : 0405am

Hadd quite a tiringg day today . But mostly its fun . Very fun . haha .
Didnt went to skwel todayy , cuz im freakingg lazy . Went to poly andd gave all sorts of excuses for an MC .
Denn proceed to cwp meet bby kecyq . Denn walk2 , denn time to go home !
Hmm .. I really hadd a freakingg fuun dayy today , like seriously . ♥ ^^
Actually , im kinda tired n lazy to post more . Soo yeaa ,  till here laa kayy . =))
Nitez . ♥♥

♥♥" I SAW A TREASURE MAP  , ANDD THAT TREASURE MAP LEAD ME TO YOUR HEART ... I JUST WANNA SAY I TREASURE YOUU ANDD I LOVE YOUU ! " ♥♥

freakingg bad day

fuck ! fuck ! fuckers ! mcm sial uhs today ! really a freakingg dayy ! bad luckers ! urgh s ! -.-

Tawuhh tkk dtg skolaa uhs tadi , menyakitkan hati jerqk !

Everythingg was ruined today ! 13 was really a freakingg s number . Every month on the 13th , there's always sumthingg happeningg . Wads really up wid 13's ? freaked out siahh .

In the morningg , it all started already .

I was forced to wake upp by my ganny -.- that wanted me to go to skwel so much despite the fact that im freakingg lazy . Came skwel late , andd as per-normal , ezlink was taken away . In class , freakingg results . Like i knew it already . After skwel , RTU ! mcm sial .-.- RTU , fun huhh ? akuu sorang . -.-

While in the room , lots of imaginations was found in my brains -.-

He's the only guy there , andd im the only gerl there . Soo its me n him the that 1room . cb , scary siah .

That "DM" , rtu teacher , talk n talk to me about my future , studies , behaviour andd rules . Like , wth ?

Who the freakingg hell wanna go RTU andd stay in there for about 3-4hrs doingg nothingg ? Rite ? He keep on sayingg dun waste my time go RTU laa , dun break the skwel rules laa n wadever shit it is .

Andd because of this , bby kecyq got mad , really mad i suppose .

Me n kecyq are far different , u see . He's sumthingg , andd im like nothingg . A total zero . Now , he's soo damn upset till dun wanna reply me . But my feelings are worse . I feel really bad n hopeless . Never felt this way before . Mixed feelings here .

But nvm , lucky he's able understand but nt that good enuf !! He wanna revenge ! hmpft !
My studies are becomingg from bad to worse . I dun wanna lose face by failingg . I wanna study alreaady ! sumone ? study wid me ? but must have a " teacher " cuz if not , i confirm wont study .
Our corhort daa laa easy to enter poly , so dun wanna waste the chance .
Gotta buck upp alreaaady ! Now , guess thats all will be posted .
Soo till here . ♥

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bloggy maaati !  -.-

time checked : 0130am

currently havingg a conversation at msn wid syaiful n cuzzy while waitingg for maahh bby kecyq. =DD

lembab nkk mampos ! haha !

Okayy dearest fwens , everyone , I guess i will have to confess tat im currently attached wid ismail ! =DD

Ismail not JINN , but Ismail aka eiss kecyqq . And there he is ! ==>>>

Okayy, wen are we formed together ? Its on the 11th of september 2010 fwens . =)) Wanna apologise if i've been soo secretive all this while . Its totally not tat i dun wanna tell u guys , but since u guys wanna noe, denn i guess its for u to find out ! =P

 BRB ! BRB ! sumbody's callingg . =DD

okayy , im back .

Without realisingg i didnt even off my lappy for the 1whole day today. Soo tat also mean tat i took 2days to update diz 1 short post. wth -.- Aniwaez , hari raya diz year was alright . Everyone is still happy eventhough beloved uncle is nt here with us . Tuesday, we get too see him . And im still thinkingg whether to follow , or not to follow . If i were to follow , i wont be goingg to skwel. Soo yeaa , me here still thinking . A letter that was sent by him recently was really a damn sadd letter till couldnt stop cryingg . How i wish we could fast forward everythingg in life . Really miss n need him now . =((

Hmm .. tomorrow skwel starts , and homework ? damn , nt done yet !
raya , raya , raya , andd im nw soo tired of skwel works . Haiz ! Cann i control the rules n regulations ? haaahs . Time now is 0334am . Soo i guess till here . Im off to sleeeepp . Goodbyes n nitez readers . =))

ps . i miss my fwens, mostly my uncle soo much . <3 =(

andd of course, nt forgetting imyt kecyq ! <3

specially muuuuuuaacchkz to u guys <3 =DD

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blog mati , again.  -.-

sry blogy for nt updatingg . Beingg busy "studying" at night . Damn , exam papers were easy(if i really study) . Feel like retaking my exams again . Really regret not studyingg properly cuz the papers were really damn easy yaaaww !

hmm .. wad a day . currently listening to the songs tat uncle used to listen .

sobsob* really missing him damn bad siaa . Listening to his songs really made me miss him soo much .

Just received a letter from him jst nw. =( andd omg , everyone is cryingg . especially my nanny. ;'((

hmm .. but wadever happens , i cnt wait for hari rayaaaa !! HAHA !

Hope diz year's hari raya will be as per-normal . No sad2 or cry2 . Must be happy ! =))

DIz year hari raya will be at my house as nanny is here wid me . Cant wait uhs ! i wanna play bunga apppii ! =D jalan2 raye wid fwens . waaahh ! cannt waaaiit ! haha . im goingg geylangg nw wid family buy raya stuff ! haaahs . till here denn .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MUSLIMA ! =))
wasalammualiakum.


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andd aniwaez kwn2 kuu , kte cam daa lmr gituhh knn tkk lpk ?
akuu rinduu uhs lpk2 like we alwaez do .
jom, kte lpk again ?

sleepless night

Time checked : 1145am .

Another sleepless night and still staringg at the screen . Wonderingg when will all this endd .

I hate it when everything that we wanted never could we get . Specially when u cant get everyone that u love . Not getting whatever things we wanted is nt as worse as tryingg to get the person that we love , or worse, love badly . Currently listening to jb songs and chatz wid umairah cuzy n dion .

Omg , without noticingg , i fell into the traps where i fell for dion . But sadly , i cnn nvr get dion . Youu see, everyone tat i wanted i cnt get . But those who im nt interested in , is infornt of me . omg .

Soo i guess , since exams are jst around the corner , i'll jst forget abt all this and stay strongg n focus . Maybe all this love thingy are nt meant for me yet ? hmm ..

Well , in skwel , ntg much happen . Tomorrow , teacher's day rehersal !

Andd problems with the guitars for naz's n amirul's .  -__-"

waaaahh ! Wonderingg what's goingg to happen tmr . Hope everything will go smoothly tmr . =))

Andd good luck to all my band mates , all the way (the)young devoters ! =))

Hope we dnt stop here TYD .  =))

UpUpAllTheWaaayyy ! ~ 

OMG

omg , blog mati . -__-

This is where i hate, blog mati ! haha .

Well hello, blog mati. haha ! okayy daa , stopp it . -_-

Long time nvr update cuz, busy n lazy . haahs ~ Anw, yesterday was Amirul Asyraf 15 Birthday .

Had lots of fun eventhough for few hrs at geylangg . Meet at 630 but end upp at 7 denn board 966 . haaha . Sampai aderh orgg say tat org yng gy malay dance lagy cepat dari kte . HAHA ! haiz , guys . 1hr or nt even 1hr oso, still can sleep . haiyoo . Reached geylangg at abt 8 dhen go eat, jln2 tgk baju raye . Dhen took cab wid lala back home. =))

Currently, chat wid lala, umairah cuzy, zarf andd zann(haha, padahal  boleyh bbl ehh kt umaa) .

In a while, cuzy's comingg ! =)) Now, im hungry ! thirsty ! tired ! sleeeeepy ! jst nw didnt wake up for sahuuur !  Haiz . Dunnoe wadd to post already .

Soo, till here dhenn .

Just wait for another episode aitez . =))

Episode 99  :D

a big different year . =((

the young uncle that always put joy in my life

Yesterday was a very tiringg day . I didnt get much rest . 6am till 2am no napp .

Reached home at abt 11+pm . Couldnt sleep till 2am . Yesterday was also a very sad dayy till everyone cnt control . Includingg me . =(  In skwel ngaa happy2 audition den mum called daa down gyle denn need to rush to toa payoh . sampai tk sempat nkk ambek bagg .  i was freakingg sad andd my tears just cnt stopp rollingg down my cheek . Well, diz year goinna be a very big diff year . My nenek keep on askingg, "aperh agaknyerh busu tgh buwat skgg ? " =( sadd huhh . feel like cryingg already seyh nw ! ohh my gosh ! 14mnths . very longg . im really missing him nw . Every nite b4 goingg to sleep, nenek will talk to me abt my 1and only beloved uncle wid tears in her eyes . Wonderingg hw would hari raya diz yr would be . 14mnths, im goinna miss my uncle . =(

 i wanna visit him as often as i cnn wid my granmother . but i know i cnt .

there's only 2questions tat will be repeatingly asked by my nenek . andd tat is , " aperh agaknyerh busu ngaa bikin ? " andd " mcm manerh  entah hari raye tahun ni nnt ?  " 

 i'll nt be able to go to my nenek house at toa payoh for 14mnths . Im goinna miss toa payoh atmosphere, uncle's toa payoh beautiful house , and toa payoh neighbours . But wads most, im goinna miss u, beloved uncle  . 14mnths, anitink cnn happen . Well i just goinna take good care of nenek as he put hopes on me to takecare of nenek for him . i'll promise u uncle . me either dun wan u to regret twice . dun wann the same thingg happen again like wad really happened wid late granfather n u .

i dun wan banana fruit 2times, haaahs ~ but im here will always doakan busu di bulan suci dan mulia ini . Semoga allah berikan busu kekuatan dan kesabaran dan rahmat.  aqilah will always remember u andd ur advices .

Love u much

 as my uncle . =))

To my fwens , sry i go off earlier tat day .

From today onwards jgk, nenek akuu daa tinggal nann akuu .

Andd akuu jgk tkleyh lpk2 slalu like we always do .

Work ? I dun think im allowed too .

14mnths bebb .

Its more than a year . =(

Soo, i hope u guys understand yarhs . =))

missingg u :((

Now time is 2am sharp .
I hate midnitez, cuz i'll gt bored andd start to read people's blog, view people's fb . Every page i click, there's always at least a few pages on them andd their loved ones . OMG ! im soo down . i miss my past soo badly . i miss nt beingg solo . i miss beingg loved . i miss beingg hugged . i miss otp wid sumone . akuu rindu laa sgt2 dimanje dann dibelai oleh seseorangg jejaka .  i miss everythingg in the past . Goshh, hw i wish i could rewind it. :((  But with a new guy of course, i guess ?
I know people will say its not the time yet . But we're humans too . "Yound kids" like me too have feelings like YOU "adults" . We do sometimes need to be loved dann dimanja . i miss all those . But wadd cann i do ? i dun wanna be goingg around findingg guys rite ? nonono, of course nt . i wanna end all this . i've promised to myself to end all this until i reached out of silingg maybe ? haha ! idk ..

Heckcare, nw im freakingg cold. Freezinggg ! buuuur ! haha .
Just nw went to witness the fireworks at wdlnds area only . It was funn, great though . We went to the town but jams all over . Den gt fed-upp, see at wdlnds only . haha . Denn go take my bro fron YOV denn reached home . Rabaak ehh ? NAtional day also my bro need to go work . haiyooo . Tmr plakk, will be goingg to JB wid cuzy . Andd my house, there's no one home .  Andd im bored rite nw, currently havingg a conversation wid afiq and jinn . I think naz is bz for nw. Cuz she's nt as hyper as she is at this time . Lala, i hvnt chat wid lala for quite a longg time in msn . Maybe she's bz too . But ohh well, its okayy . My eyes are nw closingg, soo i guess its time for me to go to sleep . Soo till here, nitez ! =)

damn tired -_-

Im soosoosoo freakingg tired today .

I didnt get much rest at home as im busy with outdoors .

Andd EYEBAGS ! urgh ! hate it lots mann !

Yesterday morningg in school, received a text from my mum . A shockingg text though . That my granny was admitted in Tan Tock Seng Hospital . Whyy shockingg cuz she nvr nvr fall sick b4 . She always look strongg . Eventhough her legs are not that strongg . Lucky yesterday got half-day school . I rushed back home andd rush rush rush, Reached ttsh, get to see my grandmother for awhile dhen must sit downstairs until night when its time for us to go back home. -_- Freakingg hospital ! Menyusahkan akuu jerqk . I wanna complain seyh ! :(( Only 4people cann go andd see patient . Dhen if any of my aunties or other grandmother come, my cuzins, bro andd me have to go down. Its like turn by turn to visit my granny. :(( Saaad eyhhh ?? Haiz, sue u hospital ! Like *tututu* ! But lucky today my nenek gt discharged . No need to wait turn by turn, go down upp down upp .

Very leceh . Thankfully my nenek is nw alilbit fine . But still on medication . old peoples, its kinda normal though . Especially for someone who's in my grandmother age . Standard laa ehh .

Ohh well.

Todayy, pagy2 daa kua. haha, tired seyh .

Yesterday reached home at 11+ . Todayy, reached home also at 11+.

Tired seyh. Soosoosoo freakingg tired . My eyes are now abt to be closingg soon . haha . Aniwaez, todayy in the morningg went to the hardcourt for some concerts . Dhen afternoon at abt 4 we went to jamm our song for teacher's day at yishun . Dhen proceed peninsula, company lala buy some stuff. Dhen tao payoh meet my cuzzins and my one andd only beloved granny. Dhenn nw home sweet home. =)) phew . haaahs . Thanks lala for the meal at magic WOK . haha . Sorry didnt call u when i reached tao payoh, akuu lupe ! haha . Daa meet cuzy kt tao payoh interchange dhen i forgot. :D

Now time 130am, dun wanna text u cuz maybe i might be disturbingg u. So if u read this, sry ehh lala, haha. akuu lupe nkk text .

Hmm .. Really hadd soosoo much funn with fwens andd families .
Thnks guys for makingg the dayy soo funn. without u guys, theres gt no all this. Appreciate it much. =))
Till here, nitez. Byee ~

unexpected

Todayy, hadd some unhappy things goingg on between me fie AGAIN.  -__-
Just dun understand why she cant admit her mistakes , till today . She said i mepek , i stepp gerek . Bile akuu stakat ckp yngg die prasann . She didint wanna admit when she herself said tat right in my face infront of everybody . I dun mind if she dun wanna admit her mistakes . I lovingg it in fact . =) Cuz whenever she said sry, she nvr mean it . Thousands times of sry, thousands times of repeatingg mistakes . Andd i cnt believe she cried just nw . haha ! Didnt expect that to happen though . haaahs . But nvm , let her continue as im lovingg it ! =) I hate fwens that always put shame on their own fwens . I truly hate .

Ohh well , dropping subject.

Todayy at MacD kecoooooh ! haha . Funny + Funn = ? mat jogangg stepp gerekk nann nenek ketiak berbuluh cam monyet . haha . While eatingg, there's a free show . People behind eatingg also cann stand up and see without helpingg . Freakingg singaporeans . haiyaaai . But it was kindaa funny though . haha ! After that rwent home . Tomorrow national day . Tomorrow also must wake up early fetch adorable as she's paiseyh dunnoe whyy . Currently chattingg wid naz, fie  andd umairahcuzy.  =)  Thats all for today, till here . Byee ~

To adorable nazirah , chill andd be patience with ur life okayy . Handle it with care . HAHA ! =)

Ngee Ann Polytechnic

Todayy went to Ngee Ann poly that has no different with si ling secondary school.  -.-

But it was funn though . Otw there , in the bus , mira was sittingg quietly . But nt in the theatre andd back to school on the bus . She made some speech of "prefect" english , on the bus . All the way from Ngee Ann , she just cnt stopp makingg speech . At Ngee Ann , we gt to see other school"s art work andd stuff like that . Hidayah looked small sized person . But she dnt eat like a small sized people . She was like a year livingg food .  Keep on takingg more food when there's still food in her mouth .

Even before we board the bus , she ran andd take more .  -.- But ohh well , its funn though . Laughingg through out the whole thingg . But not when i reached woodlands and i found out somethingg that make me feel reaaaallly daamn jealous ! haha ! yes , i am . She hadd done it . But not yet me . I wanna do it . But im just scared of the painn . im afraid i might not take the painn . But im still thinkingg of doingg it or nt . Should i or should i nt ? haha . SHOULD ! ^^

=)

Heyyaa , todayy was a funn dayy . Beingg laughingg through out the dayy . Haha .
School was okayy, jst nw hadd a SS test . Teacher jst cnt stopp staringg at me . Like as if im copyingg .
After that went to eat at MacD denn go library denn dewann denn baruu home ! heeeeehs ~ =)
Well lets talk about afiqah for today . Yeaa, kinda pity her sometimes . But sometimes also she jst need to feel the feelingg of beingg smaaack ! Jst nw my fwens had a talk wid her . Her face , yaa allah ! Soo innocent ! HAHA ! Sometimes when i go wid Lala, sue andd all, without her wid me , i feel soo wronged . Cuz for leavingg her alone halfway . Easy say , jst nt like before . But if i were to go back in my past , my life would be soo damn boringg . Andd i'll an anti-social person . Never wish to be like that . But well , at least i talk to her , spend time wid her in school . Since we cnt after school . Soo , there's some fairness there . =)

Tomorrow , will be going to the Ngee Ann Poly for an art exhibition .
Wuuuuhuuu ! Seroonooook !  ^^
See, hw lucky art students are . Dapat gy trip2 . HAHA ! Wonderingg wadd D&T students doingg , potongg kayuu ? haha ! LOL . Potongg laa krngg sampai jadi aperh ? Sampann ehh ? LOL . mepekk siaak . Okayy , jkjk d&t students .
Okayy , im tired nw . Andd goingg to sleep already . Soo yeaa , nitez !  =)

Btw, to all my fwens . Krngg tawuhh akuu knn ? Akuu suke jkjk around . It may be harsh but i nvr mean it as u'all noe . Soo, pape krngg dun take it serious cuz i was jokingg around . Didnt mean anything at all . Soo yeaa, hope u guys understand . Andd i noe u guys will . =)

mix feelings

Heyy , lets last strt off wid this week first .

This week was great . Awesome though . But nt comes to the weekends . I hate weekends . I used to love weekends lots . But sumone ruined it . ruined it damn much . Andd i hate u for that ! Guess who ? Yeaa, my mum . She jst cnt like see me havingg my own life on only saturdays ? We have sundays too rite . Sundays is for us to spend time wid families . Saturdays is fwens outingg day andd sunday is family outing day . %days of studyingg, 1day enjoy wid fwens 1day wid family . Nw thats a complete happy enjoyment week . There's always a purpose for everythingg . Still she cnt see that ? Last wekk, paitao my fwens . This week also . Paitao againn ! OMG ! I dnt wanna be looked down by my own fwens . I dun wanna be label as paitao kia . My plans were all ruined . My mum just like cnt see me happy enjoyingg my time wid fwens . She said there 5days, monday-friday for me to spend time wid fwens . Tkkn nkk gy town or go jln2 on friday after school rite ? Doesnt make sense . Haiz, lets jst forget abt my mum . She's makingg my day freakingg down .

Next week, im goinna be damn busy . For sure . Bz wid wadd ? Soo bz wid hw tat is nt done . Cuz tuesday i'll be going to the Ngee Ann polytechnic for some arts exhibition . Thursday , another art exhibition . Hw, is addingg on to my list ! Nw itself hw nt done yet . Composition, urgh . malas nyerh nkk bikin . My art still nt done . Art is actually really easy . But its just too stress when u've gt no idea at all . Thats the part i hate ! omg . Andd then next2 week, Fastingg Month ! PUAAAASE . Need to wake upp early and SHAHUR ! -.- But cnt wait for all that ! Especially Hari Raya ! fuuuuuuh ! Cant wait luhh seyh ! ^^ Dpt duit raye, boleyh spend2, shopping2 ! ^^ wuuhuuhu . tkk sabar nyerh ! =) But confirm this year wont be the same . Maybe this year my nenek raye at my house . As there some problems wid my uncle . Confirm nanges takk berlaguuu ! hahah !

Yesterday gt Nenek Timah's kenduri doa selamat . They'll go for the umrah for the second time .

Funn seyh . Dpt naek aeroplane . Dpt beli chocolate kt airport . haha . Cam kedai mamak bwk blk tkderh jual gituhh knn ? haha .

Todayy, went to the kaylong. Fun also seyh got the chance to see fresh fishes . Not only fishes . There's frogs too ! haha . best ! i stared at the frogs for quite a longg time . haha . Dunnoe why . There's of course shrimps andd many2 more. We went there cuz my dad wanted us to try eatingg an EEL . Andd its soo eeeeww . We gt to see hw the people there cuts open the eel andd into pieces . I gt to see hw they cut the frog . Im sure if u guys see it too, u'll runningg metres away . HAHA . It was soo evil ! Hidop2 ehh, drngg jst chope off their heads and den took off the skin . Very disgustingg . EEEEEWW . haha .

Well till here, i gt to do my english compo nw . If nt 1day RTU.  -.-

Soo yeaa , Byee .

Ohh yes , btw to my dearest fwens sry klaw akuu byk paitao krngg . If krngg nkk go jamming, jst go ahead . cuz bass like nt soo important cuz nt the main thing . Akuu tkk kesah . Asalkan krngg confident nann krngg nyerh position . Thats important . Sbb position krngg is the most sound people heard . Okayy, all the best . Andd hope kte dpt make it through . =))