Chapter #009 of 2011

Hhmm ..  My blog is kindaa emo . But i cant help it . Theres always ups and downs in life . If theres estatic , theres emo too . We cant predict our lives . Just happily goingg with the flow . If stressed or sad , we just gotta be stronger . <3

Chapter #008 of 2011

NEVER BE REPLACED

This song was made and dedicated by Mumin .

Well , supposely he was my fwen but idk nw . He seemed to take me seriously . I dun wanna hurt him .

I do love him too , but .. things has changed . Everything is so complicated now .

I just dont know what to do .

He cares for me , yes he do . Loves me , yes he do .

But still , i cnt predict things . No one cann in fact . I love him because he cares for me , so sweet and loving .

But sadly , i got a call yesterday night . morning in fact , at about 3am .

It was from Qamarul Arifin . He told me everything . He is sick , really sick .

Maybe for some , he's joking around . But sadly , its fucking true cuz i saw him coughing with blood :(

And the doctor says he has only 3years to live . As his lungs are really2 bad now . Jyeaa , he is a heavy smoker .

Plus , he is a drinker too :(

I wanna take care of him , i told him . And the first thought in his mind was , he thought i wanna patch upp wid him and be back wid him again . That was seriously not on my mind .

But after what he has said , looks like i gotta think like , more then thrice ??

I dont know now , i seriously dont . Should i give it another try ?

If i should , what about Mummin and Min denn ??

I dont wanna hurt them , please .

Life is so complicated now with my mum bringing back her old attitude towards me again . Omg seriously , life is like hell now for me . I cant go on like this . Come on , i cant .

This seriously , cant go on .

And plus im like , goinna take my GCE N-Level's this year . Its already a sad thing that i cant make it to the "O's"

He wants me to move on and see me smiling , but if i cant move on smiling , he wont allow and never let me go .

He promised , even if we cant be together back again , he promised to always be there for me no matter what happens . Through thick and thin , through whatever , he's there holding my hands ,

Eventhough i may have a life partner already :'(

Aww .. seriously , i havent had enuf of crying . He's just too soo sweet ! ;(

He never said these to me before . He nvr often be sweet towards me .

But after things happened , u cann see hw sweet is he nw :'(

How am i supposed to let it all out ?

I need a break , please :(

I dun wanna hurt anybody , seriously .

Deep down , i just love Qamarul Arifin . Nothing seem to change that , NOTHING .

I may be angry and do anything at Qamarul .

But nw i realised , i cant anymore .

He dun wanna be claaping 1 hand , so do i  :'(

chapter #007 o 2011

okayy , firstly im back to my own old life ! :DD

jyeaa ! im back to my single freedom life ! :))

i may look happy , but deep down im really2 very hurt . i couldnt take this anymore till it makes me wanna turn bi ! i wanna have a relationship wid the same sex . but of course i would wanna get married wid a HUSBAND . tsk-.-

yes , i broke off wid qamarul arifin . He needs to learn a lot more . He's not ready to have a relationship yet . So ive decided to let him go . Hhmm .. but life has to move on isnt it? :))

i had enough of cryings . haiz ..

speaking of crying , ive known this 1 guy named min . He's a singer . I do LOVED him . But im not sure for now cuz he's currently not happy wid me cuz i kept him waiting while i went to slacked .

He's actually 1 of my best male fwen , but actually im nt treating him like that ones .

 He's more in fact , but he doesnt seem to see that .

I dun wanna be making the first move already . cuz it hurts to make the first move , seriously . Sadly , he didnt wanna listen to me , understand me and trust me . I thought he would be there for me . He's the one who brought my happy life back to the fullest . But Omg , seriously , i had enough .

these are the reasons why i wanna turn BI ! cuz all guys are like , the same . omg , i seriously do had enough . Boys , you are taking my feelings and tears so lightly .

IhateYouGuys , i seriously do;(

P.S(for muhammad mumin) ;

I dun mind what you wanna do next , cuz i know im in wrong . Do what you think is best .

TakeCare and GoodBye love

Chapter #006 of 2011

Currently , time nw is 1155pm and im still nt sleeping when theres skwel tmr .

Okayy , im already tired nw . So im only goinna post a bit abt my life these few days .

While , last friday planned to go bugis but due of the shortage of the time , we went Novena only for strolling , window shopping . Denn went to the new hospital in Yishun which is not like a hospital . Denn yesterday , which is Saturday , planned again , to go bugis . Denn , wth , my family die die wann me to follow them balek kampong . Andd fck, i missed my chance of meeting my boyfie again . OMG , i really dunnoe hw many times ive paitaw-ed him already . Daamn it , im very sure he's mad nw . Andd as for adeqq , he doesnt seem to understand me . Soo yaa , say goodbye nw . He wanted me to change to much andd now there you go . We are no more closed fwens ? Jst class/skwelmates ? Aitez denn . Since this is wad u wanted , u cann have it .

Time checked ; 1239am !!

Im off to sleeep ~ byeees ! <3 ♥

Chapter #005 of 2011

Heyyaw !

currently got nothing much to post , as im watching titanic . hehe , you jump , i jumpe . aww .. hehe ~ ♥

jyeaa , indeed its romantic . Unfortunately , i couldnt n didnt celebrate valentine's day and i received nothing while the other couples got sumthings from their partners . aww .. ;(

But i dun care about all that , whats most is just that Qamarul Arifin and me will last till eternity . =DD

I dun care what people wanna say about him , about us . As long as he love me , cares for me , and appreciate me thats already fine . With all that stays , i will always love him no matter what . I dun care , i dun mind if we dont meet up every single day . i dun mind nt having valentine's day wid him . Because i know , not only on valentine's we cann be as sweet as others . =))

Will always love you bby♥

Chapter #004 of 2011

               SAYAAAAAAAAAANGG ♥ !

OMG , im soo fucking in love♥ ! hahah . I soo soo fucking love my boyf laaaaa :DD 

haahs , okayy2. im kindaa bored actually-.-

Boyfie is nw outside bz wid fwens , prfft . Im all alone again tonight . But nvm , still i gt to hear his voice jst nw n ltr(hoping so). OMGOMG , i swear im in looovee ! hahaha ! omg , tsk . miaang nyeeerrh . -.- YA ALLAH !

haaahs , okayy2 , wadever itis , i will still love you okayy , Qamarul Arifin. :)

Qamarul Arifin will be my last one ppl ! 

pssstpssst; i miss boyfie soo muuch ;(

Chapter #004 of 2011

6days past , and im yet to post a thing .

Hhmm .. well , ive gt ntg much to say actually . My life dis few days was alright . A bit of conflicts is still there .  Currently im attached wid Qamarul Arifin ♥ !

Ohh boyy , im soo soo in love wid him . Its already 1wk since we're together .

We went on, on 31 of January 2011 .

Andd damn , fucking shit !

No every month has the date of 31st . hahaha . 

But nvm .

 I promise to myself and also to him that we will last long andd i'll make him as my last one .

 I wanna show him that not all gerls are the same . 

I wanna change him . By looking at him , ppl's first impression of him is mat rep .

Like he is now .

But eventhough thats him , he is still in 1 of the secondary school , taking GCE O-Levels this year !

 It clearly shows that he cann be want he want if he word really hard . OMFG ! I soo soo in love wid him , I SWEAR !

Nvr came across a guy like him . Who's really so straight forward . But still , theres always sumthing bringing it down . Adeqq asked me dis question, " do u think he is for u ?"

omg, dis question is STUUCK ! is he really for me ?

I really think he cann change , he has his future . Guess i just have to think thousands times again ? Hhmm ..



WADEVER IT IS , I WILL ATILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AITEZ HUBBY . U WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONE AND ONLY , U WILL STAY BE MY LAST WANT ANDD I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX LIKE ALWAYS AITEZ . MUUACKZXC !

Chapter #003 of 2011

Damn its february nw . andd im nt updating my blog . gosh , i hate making promises or plans sumtimes . haiz .

Aitez2 , its feb nw , and its like another 7more days left ? yaayy ! heehs . cnt wait yaaaw .

But sadly , i have this strongg feeling tat says , my sweet 16 goinna be a bad one .

I dun wish tat to happen . Nvr . No one does anyway .

Currently am having sum prob wid mum . She soo like *toooot* ! Why cnt she jst understand the situation ? i told her my whereabouts , i told her my plans , i told her everything ! Yet ! She is still beingg soosoo fucking sarcastic wid me . WTH mother ? i dun wish to be a rude child . no one wans to be 1 .

 Guess all i have to do now , to avoid more unwanted things , i shall shut up and do my own things . Im goinna heck care wid u, mother . till u strt to show me ur care again . So dun blame me for anything anymore nw . Just wanted to be good when u gave me the advanced bdae present that i wanted all this while . Yes , im so thankfull for that . But see wad u've done . Haiz mother , i seriously dunnoe wad to say anymore . Hhmm ..

Every of my post will have a happy ending . I have to keep this feeling in me , myself again .
But nvm , im used to it already , eveyone is treating me the same . Mother and adeq . Say or do wadever u wanna say or do , cuz thats u . ure jst being urself . seating down , talking to u for few hrs still the same . no words or action seemed to change u . So its obvious thats who u are . No one cann change u . We'll jst have to hold on to the pain that NO ONE noes like we used to .

Im nt goinna post all this emotional things on facebook . Of course i wann adeq and mother to noe wad im feeling all this while . But i dun wann adeq to say tat im jst attracting attention andd im telling ppl tat im nt in a wrong by posting all those emotional post . Blogg has been my best partner to share problems wid . Eventhough u cant advise me but u helped me . In controlling my feelings . Eventhough its still deeply pain , at least theres some relieveness .

I hope my other fwens could help me upp again . Be a cheerful and active gerl like i always do . I used to say ntg cann bring me down . But nw i guess , u brought me real down till i lost my hope . And this is wan u call fwens ? u once asked me , scold me in front of the ppl .

Wad do u take me as ? Im nt ur dog or maid u noe . i do have feelings too . In fact every single thing in the world has their own feelings . I jst simply dunnoe wad to say anymore . Im jst too sad tat i have to lead my life like this . Why cant anybody really understand wad im feeling , wad im goinng through nw ?

I dun nid ur sympathy , but jst ur respect . thats wad HUMAN do . respect each another . Now , im always relaying on the things around me to cheer me upp . All i left that cann cheer me up is my classmates , sum skwelmates . Strongly from lala , afiqah n dearest bby Qamarul Arifin .

I've promise n swore to myself that i will treasure u , love u , and be wid u as far as i cann . I promise u that . I swear u that . Nvr wanna lose u . I will always love u no matter wad . Andd i'll show u that nt all gerls are the same bby . Loveyouualways Qamarul Arifin . ♥

U CANN COUNT ON ME LIKE 1 2 3 AND I'LL BE THERE :)

Chapter #002 of 2011

Theres ntg much actually for me to post this time . But ohh well , im bored soo might as well i'll jst post something . Hunns is busy watching movie . Min is bz wid sleeps . Everybody is bz . So left me alone bz updating my bloggy . ohh well , better denn ntg andd here it goes ..

Time checked : 0123am andd im still nt sleepy . Currently listening to Heyy Daddy-Usher . Jyeaa , freaking bored , haiz . Went ut wid famiy today . Was quite awesome eventhough in between theres sum cork-ups wid mum . tsk , standard . mulot mk akuu klaw daa kuaa manerh leyh diam klaw gy tmpt yng ramai org . gyle babi siaa . But overall , its awesome . Family bonding oi , saperh tk suke . ^^
Hhmm .. i nvr tot the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.Im currently kinda sad and confused . Hope my 2dear fwens could understand my situation now . But at the same time , i noe i'll hurt them really bad . Cuz they've put so much high hopes . Andd high hopes sumtimes is leading to harmness . I dun wanna be hurting people . Karmas , yes i do believe in that . But i jst dun wanna hurt them deeper .
Lies hurts deeper denn truths rite ? ;( 
Just hope they could understand . Im so touched by amirul's intention to bring me out to a high class place when theres a chance . He promised me that . Andd it'd been witnessed by Azrin.
He so wanted me to mark his words , keep his promise for him andd hold on to his words. :(
OMG , cann i cry ? urgh ! ;(

Min pula , wanna go out wid me too . On friday . Wanna watch movie together .
But were expecting me to be theirs . Amirul is a type of guy who has ntg but a nice kind , sincere heart . While min has a lil bit high standard denn amirul but still low from mine . Min has a very sincere n kind heart too . i seriously cann see they really do . But i jst cant have u guys yet .
As for Haikal , im always wid my promise . Somehow , i just feel like m.i.a-ing . But thinking twice , i'll be hurting the double . Soo , wads goinna happen , im goinna let it happen .
i cnt do anitink but to jst let it flow .
Its just too bad that every person cann only have a person in their heart . Andd thats the reason why we have only 1 heart .
 haiz , guess tats enuf for today . Im off to sleep ~

                                                           iloveyou , imissyou , sosooo muuuch cutesweetstuffy ! ♥
                                                                               no one but you bby, no matter wad. ♥

1 January 2011 #001

Today was a rest day for me at home . As im super tired andd lazy to go out . Nothing much happened today . Hhmm .. currently im have a conversation wid haikal cutesweetstuffy andd alfie .

 Andd yes yaw ! akuu jatoh cinta lagy .. lagy lagy kuu jatuh cintaaaa ! haha !

Im hoping he's really the one im looking for all this while .

Eventhough we're jst still fwens for now , yet he's so freking sweeeet ! hehe .

 No matter wad happen , he'll always stay wid me . He's sleeping after i sleeps .

Asked me if he should reply a girl's text . Andand , he's willing to wait for me sampai bile .

weeee ^^  sweeeet riteeeee ?? heeehs ~  jyeaa , i noe . heheh !

Nvr had a fwen like this .

I swear , if i had u , i'll be wid yaa n take good care of u forever . i swear my love .

Hhmm .. he seemed to be serious in his words andd he is in fact .  :) Hope i get to settle my other things faster andd may have a blast wid haikal cutesweetstuffy . ♥

P.S : bby , please trust me kay ? When i say i love you , means i really do love you . im different . im seriously not like other girls . u'll noe when u get to know me more . i mean very word i say . i dun wanna be hurt . So i promise andd i swear i wont hurt u either . Its okayy if u still cant or dun wanna trust me . Cuz i noe , i understand its really hard to you or even anyone to trust these words . But its okayy , take ur time kayy . All i want you to know is that im different from any others . So appreciate me yaa ? loveyouualwaysbby . no one but u. =)) ♥

                                             MUHD HAIKAL ♥
                                ILOVEYOU KAY ? :) ♥
                                                                                trust me bby.

no words cann decribe me now .

Time now is 0520pm . 31 December 2010 . Andd soon , in jst a few hrs comes 2011 . Andd omg , 2010 ends soo freaking faaast mann ! Next year is goinna be my very big year . Ive promised not to play around anymore n be more serious in things .

But still ii really do need someone to control me . I just dunnoe why cant i still contro myself . This is soo sad mann . I hate this . Hhmm .. Hope i'll be able to find sumone who is real to be fwens .

My parents are both no at home now . Not sure wad time will they be coming back home . I dun wanna be staying at home again like last year . Really2 wanna make a big different year when 2011 starts . Insyaallah , amin .

Hhmm .. went and met adeq jst nw as he left his HP in my bag. -.-

Met ayie n amirul for 2days straight . I find them really awkward . They seemed to be fine to be my fwens only . Not more denn that . Maybe being ttm will be enuf . Had fun wid them yesterday eventhough we didnt get to go bowling as planned . ;)

alright , im off to wdlnds civic centre for countdooooown denn off to Marinaaaa !

and its goinna be

HAPPY NEW YEAR (2011) EVERYONE ! ♥

P.S : I promise to change . i promise to be serious in the right time . I promise to work hard nxt year . With your help , i promise not to bring you down , love . Please stay and be there for me always and forever . iloveyoubby . one and only . ♥

Today is like my bad day . I dunnoe wads happening . Things got worse .
Well , met my old fwens today and accompanied but adeq . I jst cant believe wad happened jst now . How i wish i could predict everything in the world . I litterally dunnoe wad to do now . Ayie is upset that im like damn closed wid amirul . Jealousy ? Maybe huhh . Sometimes in life, its hard for us to make decisions . Andd i hate that very much . I jst dunnoe WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO ?????? ;(  SERIOUSLY , I SWEAR I WANNA CRY OUT LOUUUUD ! I SWEAR I WANNA M.I.A WID THE BOTH OF YOUUUU !! URGH !

Happy 15 Birthday Nazirah ! ♥

FINALLY ! its 21st December where Nazirah really fully turned 15years old . hahah !

HAPPY 15 BIRTHDAY NUR NAZIRAH . may your wishes come true , dipangjangkan umor , dann jadi lah anak yang soleha . Amin .

Wanna apologies for not coming wid the Kinects to celebrate Nazirah's advance birthday yesterday .

Cuz Nazirah , pagy akuu gy buwat rmbt beyh finish betol2 kol 0115pm . denn lepas tuu gy sembawang japp beli barang2 untk class outing .

tapy check peyh check ramai tk gy pastu drngg postponed it to nxt wk . akuu nk text kaw nk blgg aku tk sempat, daa text panjang2 beyh sampai umaa daa mlm , baruu prasan yangg akuu tkk tekan SEND !

soo im really2 sry . see tat u had fun andd hope u really do .

see the picture up there ? thats the best buddies of 3n2(2010) .
multi-racial friendship . haha . Things happened so fast . Till i didnt realised that we are actually getting closer . Didnt expect for these to happen also actually . But this is what i call fate . Naseb yang tidak boleyh ditentukan . We had lots of fun together . Walaupon persahabatan ini tidak akan kekal , akuu tk kesah . Akuu tawuu aderh orgg akan ckp , drngg buwat pkai , nak2 yang kt hujong sbelah kanan tuu . Sebab krngg tawuu die gadoh nann kwn baek die . Tapy drng klaw baek balek pnn , ahbeyh si dektu lupekan akuu , akuu tk kesah . Sebab aperh ? Sbb akuu daa biase kene tinggal nann member . kadang2 akuu tk phm . asal akuu kene respect habes2 nann member2 akuu , tapy drngg tk pernah nk respect akuu ? Bile kte 2 orgg baruu kaw nk respect . Bile aku , kaw nann MEMBER2 KAW , kaw lyn akuu mcm aku nii tkderh prasaan .  Akuu pnn tk thuu uhs , aperh krng nk . Pade mate krng aku nii aperh ? bdk taik ? kental ? maseh mentah ? ehh pls laa , akuu same age nann krngg . klaw krngg nk ckp aku gituu , kaw pnn same nann akuu jgk . mmg uhs , tk kire umur . Klaw krng nkk ckp krng boleyh pikir , krng tawuu nii , tawuu tuu . tapy krng mcm bdk2 , tak tawuu lyn SUME member kaw dgn cara yang adil . krng suke nii orgg , kaw respect habes2 . Beyh bile tk suke nii orgg , kaw lyn die mcm die tuu tkderh prasaan . wth ?
Kte pnn mcm kaw jgk , aderh prasaan . kaw nkk orgg respect kaw , kaw pnn kene respect org laen jgk . Respect bkn saje kaw kene hormat . Tapy kaw kene lyn member2 kaw dgn cara yang adil . tuu pnn kire respect jgk . JANGAN pernah lupe kwn lmr . Sbb tanpa kwn lwr , u wont be who u are nw . kwn lmr is the best klaw krng nk tawuu . Akuu seriously tk kesah klaw kaw nk lupekan akuu . Tapy 1 thing uhh , jgn cari akuu . sbb krng aderh member baruu yng lagy baek perh .
akuu kesian , kesian jgk . akuu pnn aderh prasaan . Mestu kene tawuu limit2 die laa kayy . ♥

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wow , for soo longg didnt update my blog .
there lots and loooots of things for me to share out nw .

err .. hw should i strt ? hmm .. okayy , lets strt off wid today . Well , today had a real great fucking daaayy ! LOL , afiq was a real joker mann , im telling yaa . As planned , we wanted to go for ice-skating , but too bad theres damn loooots of people in the ice-skating court . Andd we end upp playying bowling instead andd it was my first ever time playying bowling !! hahaha ! Unbelieveable huhh ? But nt bad , its was freakingg fun aniwaez . + funny . hahah ! andd there a random guy said "HI" , to me ? hahah ! WTH !! hotstuff sgt ke ? wakakakka ! jkjk . denn we went headingg home after lala got her smallsmall toy she playyed . anddphotos will be uploading ltr . ^^

ohh well , enuf of today .
lets talk abt my life . Since i didnt update my blog for soo damn long .

Aderh hikmah disebaliknyerh . akuu sungguh percaye dengan kate2 itu . ia terbukti . akuu percaye dengan Allah S.W.T . akuu terbayangg-bayangg dan dengan secare tiba2 , akuu teringat pula pkck ku yng kini sangat amat ku rindui dan perlukan sekali . Pkck tidak pernah bersolat , dann juga , tidak pernah berpuase . Tiap-tiap malam , clubbing , tmpt2 maksiat itulaa tmpt yng akan die pergy dgn tiada putus . Kini , hidup nya sudah pnn mula berubah . die menjadi seorang yng alim dan beriman . Dia suda mula bersolat . Mendengar azan membuwat nya berasa sungguh tenang kata pkck ku bila ku kunjungi nya di tmpt tertutup itu . Melihat wajah nya , ingin ku menjatuhkan airmata ku . tetapi ku harus kuatkan diri . Wajah yang penuh dgn kekesalan , kesedihan yang tidak dapat diluahkan . iya , iya sungguh amat sedih . sedih kann ? =(( aku sungguh merindui pkck ku . ya allah , cepatkan laa masa supaya pkck ku boleyh disamping ku kembali .

pheew ~ so touching ! wkakaak ! okayy , sumpah aku sedih siaa . nii kata2 jujur daripada hati yng suci dan seikhlas-ikhlas nabi . cheeeyydibaah ! hahhah , but wad to do . life must go on ..

Okayy , recently , im getting to get closed wid hamsa . and sinMin maybe ? hahah ! things in life happened to fast . till i didnt realise tat we're buddies ? wkakaka ! i jst cnt believe this ! another unbelieveable case ! hahaah ! tidak ku sangka sungguh tidak ku dugaa !! haha , siak uhs . okayy uhs , hadd fun also wid them . lagypnn tk slh siaa aku nk rapt nann drng . sbb akuu suke ! haahhah , tkderh sen , aderh member kaya raya bebb ! wkakakak ! sial uhs ! prangai mate juitaaann ! haha , tkderh laa , fake laa . kaylaa , till here . byee ~

bored luhh !

hmm .. im currently soo freakingg bored . Got nothingg at all to do .

Uncle is comingg back next month ! ^^

Actually kind of cant wait for tomorrow's day cuz i gotta date tomorrow ! ^^

But still , im not sure yet . Boyfie is restingg , very tired after work . Dun wanna disturb his rest , but how am i goinna tell him abt tmr , haiz . silap2 tkk jadi siaa . -.-

haiyhaaai .. biarkann laa ehh .

Aniwaez , SUMPAH akuu daa naek geli nann kaaaaw ! eeeew ! stop it siaa . Freakingg "BITCH" .
HAHAHAHH !

This bitch aint a gerl . =)) Just saw their pics just now . makin geli siaa akuu . -.-

I just dun understand why that freakingg bitch wanna be a bitch . Cant that bitch just be ITself ?

Dun change to the opposite way n act oppositely . Cuz its soo freakingg disgustingg . Andd not only that , when that bitch is mad at me , that bitch will "COMPLAIN" to my bbyP . Andd when that bitch is mad bbyP , that bitch will like sum sort of "COMPLAIN" to me . Like , wth siaa ? Goingg around , tellingg people IT's stories . COMPLAIN , rather . -.- Its hard for bitches to change . Especially bitches like that bitch . That bitch cann nvr change till that bitch change to ITs proper way .

ps . more andd more people are getting sengeeeets ! soo , STOPP BEINGG SENGET BITCH ! Klaw kaw pk kaw boleyh mrh , kaw boleyh tunjok kaw peyh BIG , why not other people ? true ? =))

Im makingg use of this holiday periods to get rid of myself from that bitch . I dun wanna be a bitch . I dun wanna be sengets like that bitch . =)) Soo , i guess its a goodbye huhh bitch . Learn to appreciate nice people . =))

imisshubbyfeelsodifferentnow =(

hmm .. today was atiringg day .
 a damn tiringg one . Morningg 9-12 fitness trainingg n outdoor games .
Freakingg tiringg mann , after for so long didnt do any exercise at all . Denn 130 , studycamp till 430 .

Reached home at 530 . 6pm went down slack for awhile wid haikal , n riverside fwens till 8 andd back home again now . Mahh body is achingg yaw !

ohh well , wadever . tmr is hari raya haji andd wid my body's achingg walk here , walk there . damn , goinna be another tiringg andd sickeningg day . ohh yeaa , speakingg of sickeningg .

Had a small querell wid syaiful n he deleted me from his fb fwen list , andd it was AWESOME !

Today , im losingg syaiful . Yesterday i lost hariz . tmr ? hmm .. will be losingg everyone . how awesome tat goinna be . indeed , AWESOME ! i dunnoe how am i goinna really control everythingg . Everythingg seems wrongg . I dunnoe wads goingg on . My future , let fate decide . =) time now is 12am . Andd wanna get some rest now . nitez . =))

changed

Just got back from lib wid naz n adeq .
Did some studycamp work that is never endingg n damn , im freakingg tired nw .
Met lala n afiq too at bns denn off to skwel works !

hmm .. changed . wad abt changed ?

everything is changingg now . idk if its goinna be bad or its goinna be good .

Mum doesnt seem to appreciate wad she's havingg nw . Im now kinda busy wid skwels andd time really is runningg shot for me cuz i got those studycamp stuff till late eveningg . My first time ever goingg studycamp . Andd my studycamp work is still not done yet .

Just now , adeq mention that when im with naz , lala andd all i will forget him . But thats what he's doingg to me n not me doingg that to him . Andd mum is startingg not to believe me , again . -.-

Both family n aunties doesnt give me support at all .  Sumtimes , idk why this happen to me . Really brings me down . Mum asked , why cnt i just stay n study at home . Andd an easy ans : BECAUSE , no one cann help me when im stuck in anywhere ! Cuz i got a hopeless brother that noes nothing of my work , n mum ?  hopeless too ! Like mother like Son ! urgh !

hmm .. well , i guess i shall ignore those unappreciative pepps . =)

But i just dun understand why people dun appreciate me now ? im a changed gerl now , andd whoever gets me is really goinna be really lucky , seriously .

Im now getting a life andd currently doingg quite well eventhough its not really well yet . Time to change everythingg ! hmm .. cant wait for next mnth cuz my uncle is comingg out ! ^^

  im currently kinda tired nw . andd damn , got skwel again tmr . haiyooi !

 Time checked ; 0145am , andd im off to sleep ! nitez readers . =)

goodbye singapore andd hello china =))

Wow , time files really fast . Its already end of october andd november is comingg .
Andd as usual , end of year exams will led us up to sec4NA . Andd of course , my China trip is comingg ! =)) Will be goingg to china tmr andd be back on friday . 5days , 4nights .
damn , sumpah akuu miss ajul . byk2 orgg akuu leyh miss ajul sgt2 plakk nii .. haiz , fck ! need him =(
Syaiful's already upset wid me cuz i told him tat im att wid ajul . Denn nw i still need to tell wann n adi . In process of telling adi , but nt yet wann . omg , satu2 aderh same feelings towards me ! kiwaak !! nii laa kaw , tkk pk psl prasaan orangg ! omg aqilah ! berubah laa !! jgnn maenkan prasaan orangg lagy ! nnt kaw dipermaenkan !! urgh ! stepp kali akuu nkk kua mesti aderh jerqk problem ! daa laa nenek dari pagy kuaa tkk balek2 , buwat sume orgg risau . mak akuu stress denn bisingg2 ! wahh , siakk uhs , hidopp ! terok perqk ??
haiz , heck care laa . im flyingg off to china tmr morning already . goinna miss my fwens andd bbyajul♥  time nw is 1215am . andd im off to sleep ~

Heyyaaw . =)

wow , for such a long time did not update my blogy . Beingg very lazy actually . =)

Today was indeed a super great day . Morningg wid ajulbby , afternoon wid lalabbyprecious . 

Manage to go to sembawang park wid lala which was actually planned to be at yishun . haahs ~ but its, wow . fun siaa ! LOL . Hadd fun otw there too , haha . especially when comes the "bus" part . lol . Took pictures too there . Me , being a very well photographer . haahs ! ohh well , 2nd mission accomplished . 3rd , comingg upp soon . =)

Time now is 0334am .

Andd i still cant sleep . Went to bed already at 12am , but was waken upp by the cool-ness of my room . -.- ANDDandd !! .. omg ! today's already saturday , and im like got 2more days to go for Chinaaaaa ! LOL ! wow , mcm lalabbyprecious jgk ckp , bkn aperh uhs , but sbb tk pernah gy peyh psl excited gyle babi ! haha ! lol . happyhappy baangeet ! =DD 5days 4nights , wow . Its like 5days of normal skwelingg days . okayy laa tuhh . But , will sure miss bby, fwens n family so much . Andd yeaa nenek , u gotta be independent ! Tdo sendiri dlm bilik eqee tuhh ! haha ! sumpah siakk , tkk sabaaar ! LOL !

Tomorrow , will be out to town to buy things tat are needed .

Lala is confirmed wid boyfie akiid , me still nt yet confirm .

ninabuu, menyusahkan org jerqk ! If i dun expect wad i expected tmr from bby , hmm .. mmg ! mmg kaw .. will just wait andd see . got me like , OMG ! im soo in love , i found u finally ! bbyiloveyouu !=DD

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HGL ! ^^

heyheyy !
Didnt update much diz few days . Wanted to update but half way sumthingg pulled me back to bed . hehe cuz was busy studyingg for eoy examinations . Exams were fine . Sum paper seemed to be easy n also sum seemed to be very difficult . Very scare if i fail my english ! >.< but its really a relief when exams over . But nt till resutls ! haisss !

Well , today is friday n its like , wow , so fast ?? o.O
Just in 10more days , i'll be flyingg over to China , Anxi ! wooohhooh ! Soo freakingg excited ! ^^
Juat cant wait . Last week went to Sepangg at KL , malaysia . Witnessed the MotoGP ! wow . Saw rossi n was like , WOWW ! jumpingg2 upp n downs . =DD gereeek dohh ! ^^ but didnt get to see him . Cuz we'll need RM2000 in order to see him , shake his hand , hug him , kissed him , take pictures wid him n everythingg wid him . haha ! wow . hw i wish i were a rich gerl . hmm ..

Currently , listeningg to songs, testingg akachaan n doingg some research on Anxi, China . =))
Guaiguai mahh .. lol . Tmr goingg to gym wid ikaa .
Was planningg , to straighten or small curls hair for me ? hmm ..