no words cann decribe me now .

Time now is 0520pm . 31 December 2010 . Andd soon , in jst a few hrs comes 2011 . Andd omg , 2010 ends soo freaking faaast mann ! Next year is goinna be my very big year . Ive promised not to play around anymore n be more serious in things .

But still ii really do need someone to control me . I just dunnoe why cant i still contro myself . This is soo sad mann . I hate this . Hhmm .. Hope i'll be able to find sumone who is real to be fwens .

My parents are both no at home now . Not sure wad time will they be coming back home . I dun wanna be staying at home again like last year . Really2 wanna make a big different year when 2011 starts . Insyaallah , amin .

Hhmm .. went and met adeq jst nw as he left his HP in my bag. -.-

Met ayie n amirul for 2days straight . I find them really awkward . They seemed to be fine to be my fwens only . Not more denn that . Maybe being ttm will be enuf . Had fun wid them yesterday eventhough we didnt get to go bowling as planned . ;)

alright , im off to wdlnds civic centre for countdooooown denn off to Marinaaaa !

and its goinna be

HAPPY NEW YEAR (2011) EVERYONE ! ♥

P.S : I promise to change . i promise to be serious in the right time . I promise to work hard nxt year . With your help , i promise not to bring you down , love . Please stay and be there for me always and forever . iloveyoubby . one and only . ♥

Today is like my bad day . I dunnoe wads happening . Things got worse .
Well , met my old fwens today and accompanied but adeq . I jst cant believe wad happened jst now . How i wish i could predict everything in the world . I litterally dunnoe wad to do now . Ayie is upset that im like damn closed wid amirul . Jealousy ? Maybe huhh . Sometimes in life, its hard for us to make decisions . Andd i hate that very much . I jst dunnoe WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO ?????? ;(  SERIOUSLY , I SWEAR I WANNA CRY OUT LOUUUUD ! I SWEAR I WANNA M.I.A WID THE BOTH OF YOUUUU !! URGH !

Happy 15 Birthday Nazirah ! ♥

FINALLY ! its 21st December where Nazirah really fully turned 15years old . hahah !

HAPPY 15 BIRTHDAY NUR NAZIRAH . may your wishes come true , dipangjangkan umor , dann jadi lah anak yang soleha . Amin .

Wanna apologies for not coming wid the Kinects to celebrate Nazirah's advance birthday yesterday .

Cuz Nazirah , pagy akuu gy buwat rmbt beyh finish betol2 kol 0115pm . denn lepas tuu gy sembawang japp beli barang2 untk class outing .

tapy check peyh check ramai tk gy pastu drngg postponed it to nxt wk . akuu nk text kaw nk blgg aku tk sempat, daa text panjang2 beyh sampai umaa daa mlm , baruu prasan yangg akuu tkk tekan SEND !

soo im really2 sry . see tat u had fun andd hope u really do .

see the picture up there ? thats the best buddies of 3n2(2010) .
multi-racial friendship . haha . Things happened so fast . Till i didnt realised that we are actually getting closer . Didnt expect for these to happen also actually . But this is what i call fate . Naseb yang tidak boleyh ditentukan . We had lots of fun together . Walaupon persahabatan ini tidak akan kekal , akuu tk kesah . Akuu tawuu aderh orgg akan ckp , drngg buwat pkai , nak2 yang kt hujong sbelah kanan tuu . Sebab krngg tawuu die gadoh nann kwn baek die . Tapy drng klaw baek balek pnn , ahbeyh si dektu lupekan akuu , akuu tk kesah . Sebab aperh ? Sbb akuu daa biase kene tinggal nann member . kadang2 akuu tk phm . asal akuu kene respect habes2 nann member2 akuu , tapy drngg tk pernah nk respect akuu ? Bile kte 2 orgg baruu kaw nk respect . Bile aku , kaw nann MEMBER2 KAW , kaw lyn akuu mcm aku nii tkderh prasaan .  Akuu pnn tk thuu uhs , aperh krng nk . Pade mate krng aku nii aperh ? bdk taik ? kental ? maseh mentah ? ehh pls laa , akuu same age nann krngg . klaw krngg nk ckp aku gituu , kaw pnn same nann akuu jgk . mmg uhs , tk kire umur . Klaw krng nkk ckp krng boleyh pikir , krng tawuu nii , tawuu tuu . tapy krng mcm bdk2 , tak tawuu lyn SUME member kaw dgn cara yang adil . krng suke nii orgg , kaw respect habes2 . Beyh bile tk suke nii orgg , kaw lyn die mcm die tuu tkderh prasaan . wth ?
Kte pnn mcm kaw jgk , aderh prasaan . kaw nkk orgg respect kaw , kaw pnn kene respect org laen jgk . Respect bkn saje kaw kene hormat . Tapy kaw kene lyn member2 kaw dgn cara yang adil . tuu pnn kire respect jgk . JANGAN pernah lupe kwn lmr . Sbb tanpa kwn lwr , u wont be who u are nw . kwn lmr is the best klaw krng nk tawuu . Akuu seriously tk kesah klaw kaw nk lupekan akuu . Tapy 1 thing uhh , jgn cari akuu . sbb krng aderh member baruu yng lagy baek perh .
akuu kesian , kesian jgk . akuu pnn aderh prasaan . Mestu kene tawuu limit2 die laa kayy . ♥

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wow , for soo longg didnt update my blog .
there lots and loooots of things for me to share out nw .

err .. hw should i strt ? hmm .. okayy , lets strt off wid today . Well , today had a real great fucking daaayy ! LOL , afiq was a real joker mann , im telling yaa . As planned , we wanted to go for ice-skating , but too bad theres damn loooots of people in the ice-skating court . Andd we end upp playying bowling instead andd it was my first ever time playying bowling !! hahaha ! Unbelieveable huhh ? But nt bad , its was freakingg fun aniwaez . + funny . hahah ! andd there a random guy said "HI" , to me ? hahah ! WTH !! hotstuff sgt ke ? wakakakka ! jkjk . denn we went headingg home after lala got her smallsmall toy she playyed . anddphotos will be uploading ltr . ^^

ohh well , enuf of today .
lets talk abt my life . Since i didnt update my blog for soo damn long .

Aderh hikmah disebaliknyerh . akuu sungguh percaye dengan kate2 itu . ia terbukti . akuu percaye dengan Allah S.W.T . akuu terbayangg-bayangg dan dengan secare tiba2 , akuu teringat pula pkck ku yng kini sangat amat ku rindui dan perlukan sekali . Pkck tidak pernah bersolat , dann juga , tidak pernah berpuase . Tiap-tiap malam , clubbing , tmpt2 maksiat itulaa tmpt yng akan die pergy dgn tiada putus . Kini , hidup nya sudah pnn mula berubah . die menjadi seorang yng alim dan beriman . Dia suda mula bersolat . Mendengar azan membuwat nya berasa sungguh tenang kata pkck ku bila ku kunjungi nya di tmpt tertutup itu . Melihat wajah nya , ingin ku menjatuhkan airmata ku . tetapi ku harus kuatkan diri . Wajah yang penuh dgn kekesalan , kesedihan yang tidak dapat diluahkan . iya , iya sungguh amat sedih . sedih kann ? =(( aku sungguh merindui pkck ku . ya allah , cepatkan laa masa supaya pkck ku boleyh disamping ku kembali .

pheew ~ so touching ! wkakaak ! okayy , sumpah aku sedih siaa . nii kata2 jujur daripada hati yng suci dan seikhlas-ikhlas nabi . cheeeyydibaah ! hahhah , but wad to do . life must go on ..

Okayy , recently , im getting to get closed wid hamsa . and sinMin maybe ? hahah ! things in life happened to fast . till i didnt realise tat we're buddies ? wkakaka ! i jst cnt believe this ! another unbelieveable case ! hahaah ! tidak ku sangka sungguh tidak ku dugaa !! haha , siak uhs . okayy uhs , hadd fun also wid them . lagypnn tk slh siaa aku nk rapt nann drng . sbb akuu suke ! haahhah , tkderh sen , aderh member kaya raya bebb ! wkakakak ! sial uhs ! prangai mate juitaaann ! haha , tkderh laa , fake laa . kaylaa , till here . byee ~

bored luhh !

hmm .. im currently soo freakingg bored . Got nothingg at all to do .

Uncle is comingg back next month ! ^^

Actually kind of cant wait for tomorrow's day cuz i gotta date tomorrow ! ^^

But still , im not sure yet . Boyfie is restingg , very tired after work . Dun wanna disturb his rest , but how am i goinna tell him abt tmr , haiz . silap2 tkk jadi siaa . -.-

haiyhaaai .. biarkann laa ehh .

Aniwaez , SUMPAH akuu daa naek geli nann kaaaaw ! eeeew ! stop it siaa . Freakingg "BITCH" .
HAHAHAHH !

This bitch aint a gerl . =)) Just saw their pics just now . makin geli siaa akuu . -.-

I just dun understand why that freakingg bitch wanna be a bitch . Cant that bitch just be ITself ?

Dun change to the opposite way n act oppositely . Cuz its soo freakingg disgustingg . Andd not only that , when that bitch is mad at me , that bitch will "COMPLAIN" to my bbyP . Andd when that bitch is mad bbyP , that bitch will like sum sort of "COMPLAIN" to me . Like , wth siaa ? Goingg around , tellingg people IT's stories . COMPLAIN , rather . -.- Its hard for bitches to change . Especially bitches like that bitch . That bitch cann nvr change till that bitch change to ITs proper way .

ps . more andd more people are getting sengeeeets ! soo , STOPP BEINGG SENGET BITCH ! Klaw kaw pk kaw boleyh mrh , kaw boleyh tunjok kaw peyh BIG , why not other people ? true ? =))

Im makingg use of this holiday periods to get rid of myself from that bitch . I dun wanna be a bitch . I dun wanna be sengets like that bitch . =)) Soo , i guess its a goodbye huhh bitch . Learn to appreciate nice people . =))

imisshubbyfeelsodifferentnow =(

hmm .. today was atiringg day .
 a damn tiringg one . Morningg 9-12 fitness trainingg n outdoor games .
Freakingg tiringg mann , after for so long didnt do any exercise at all . Denn 130 , studycamp till 430 .

Reached home at 530 . 6pm went down slack for awhile wid haikal , n riverside fwens till 8 andd back home again now . Mahh body is achingg yaw !

ohh well , wadever . tmr is hari raya haji andd wid my body's achingg walk here , walk there . damn , goinna be another tiringg andd sickeningg day . ohh yeaa , speakingg of sickeningg .

Had a small querell wid syaiful n he deleted me from his fb fwen list , andd it was AWESOME !

Today , im losingg syaiful . Yesterday i lost hariz . tmr ? hmm .. will be losingg everyone . how awesome tat goinna be . indeed , AWESOME ! i dunnoe how am i goinna really control everythingg . Everythingg seems wrongg . I dunnoe wads goingg on . My future , let fate decide . =) time now is 12am . Andd wanna get some rest now . nitez . =))

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Just got back from lib wid naz n adeq .
Did some studycamp work that is never endingg n damn , im freakingg tired nw .
Met lala n afiq too at bns denn off to skwel works !

hmm .. changed . wad abt changed ?

everything is changingg now . idk if its goinna be bad or its goinna be good .

Mum doesnt seem to appreciate wad she's havingg nw . Im now kinda busy wid skwels andd time really is runningg shot for me cuz i got those studycamp stuff till late eveningg . My first time ever goingg studycamp . Andd my studycamp work is still not done yet .

Just now , adeq mention that when im with naz , lala andd all i will forget him . But thats what he's doingg to me n not me doingg that to him . Andd mum is startingg not to believe me , again . -.-

Both family n aunties doesnt give me support at all .  Sumtimes , idk why this happen to me . Really brings me down . Mum asked , why cnt i just stay n study at home . Andd an easy ans : BECAUSE , no one cann help me when im stuck in anywhere ! Cuz i got a hopeless brother that noes nothing of my work , n mum ?  hopeless too ! Like mother like Son ! urgh !

hmm .. well , i guess i shall ignore those unappreciative pepps . =)

But i just dun understand why people dun appreciate me now ? im a changed gerl now , andd whoever gets me is really goinna be really lucky , seriously .

Im now getting a life andd currently doingg quite well eventhough its not really well yet . Time to change everythingg ! hmm .. cant wait for next mnth cuz my uncle is comingg out ! ^^

  im currently kinda tired nw . andd damn , got skwel again tmr . haiyooi !

 Time checked ; 0145am , andd im off to sleep ! nitez readers . =)

goodbye singapore andd hello china =))

Wow , time files really fast . Its already end of october andd november is comingg .
Andd as usual , end of year exams will led us up to sec4NA . Andd of course , my China trip is comingg ! =)) Will be goingg to china tmr andd be back on friday . 5days , 4nights .
damn , sumpah akuu miss ajul . byk2 orgg akuu leyh miss ajul sgt2 plakk nii .. haiz , fck ! need him =(
Syaiful's already upset wid me cuz i told him tat im att wid ajul . Denn nw i still need to tell wann n adi . In process of telling adi , but nt yet wann . omg , satu2 aderh same feelings towards me ! kiwaak !! nii laa kaw , tkk pk psl prasaan orangg ! omg aqilah ! berubah laa !! jgnn maenkan prasaan orangg lagy ! nnt kaw dipermaenkan !! urgh ! stepp kali akuu nkk kua mesti aderh jerqk problem ! daa laa nenek dari pagy kuaa tkk balek2 , buwat sume orgg risau . mak akuu stress denn bisingg2 ! wahh , siakk uhs , hidopp ! terok perqk ??
haiz , heck care laa . im flyingg off to china tmr morning already . goinna miss my fwens andd bbyajul♥  time nw is 1215am . andd im off to sleep ~

Heyyaaw . =)

wow , for such a long time did not update my blogy . Beingg very lazy actually . =)

Today was indeed a super great day . Morningg wid ajulbby , afternoon wid lalabbyprecious . 

Manage to go to sembawang park wid lala which was actually planned to be at yishun . haahs ~ but its, wow . fun siaa ! LOL . Hadd fun otw there too , haha . especially when comes the "bus" part . lol . Took pictures too there . Me , being a very well photographer . haahs ! ohh well , 2nd mission accomplished . 3rd , comingg upp soon . =)

Time now is 0334am .

Andd i still cant sleep . Went to bed already at 12am , but was waken upp by the cool-ness of my room . -.- ANDDandd !! .. omg ! today's already saturday , and im like got 2more days to go for Chinaaaaa ! LOL ! wow , mcm lalabbyprecious jgk ckp , bkn aperh uhs , but sbb tk pernah gy peyh psl excited gyle babi ! haha ! lol . happyhappy baangeet ! =DD 5days 4nights , wow . Its like 5days of normal skwelingg days . okayy laa tuhh . But , will sure miss bby, fwens n family so much . Andd yeaa nenek , u gotta be independent ! Tdo sendiri dlm bilik eqee tuhh ! haha ! sumpah siakk , tkk sabaaar ! LOL !

Tomorrow , will be out to town to buy things tat are needed .

Lala is confirmed wid boyfie akiid , me still nt yet confirm .

ninabuu, menyusahkan org jerqk ! If i dun expect wad i expected tmr from bby , hmm .. mmg ! mmg kaw .. will just wait andd see . got me like , OMG ! im soo in love , i found u finally ! bbyiloveyouu !=DD

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HGL ! ^^

heyheyy !
Didnt update much diz few days . Wanted to update but half way sumthingg pulled me back to bed . hehe cuz was busy studyingg for eoy examinations . Exams were fine . Sum paper seemed to be easy n also sum seemed to be very difficult . Very scare if i fail my english ! >.< but its really a relief when exams over . But nt till resutls ! haisss !

Well , today is friday n its like , wow , so fast ?? o.O
Just in 10more days , i'll be flyingg over to China , Anxi ! wooohhooh ! Soo freakingg excited ! ^^
Juat cant wait . Last week went to Sepangg at KL , malaysia . Witnessed the MotoGP ! wow . Saw rossi n was like , WOWW ! jumpingg2 upp n downs . =DD gereeek dohh ! ^^ but didnt get to see him . Cuz we'll need RM2000 in order to see him , shake his hand , hug him , kissed him , take pictures wid him n everythingg wid him . haha ! wow . hw i wish i were a rich gerl . hmm ..

Currently , listeningg to songs, testingg akachaan n doingg some research on Anxi, China . =))
Guaiguai mahh .. lol . Tmr goingg to gym wid ikaa .
Was planningg , to straighten or small curls hair for me ? hmm ..

eqeewanoni =))

Well heyyaa , ntg much happen today . As usually , skwel was fine . Had english paper1 n SocialStudies EOY examinations . English paper1 was quite , nt to say easy , but okayy laa . SocialStudies ? ohh my , please dun ask . As usual , only do 2questions -.- soo maybe i'll get 7\50 ? or usual number i get is 1 . haha . -.-
It may be a joke to me but nt to afiqah n laiyinah . They scold me like hell , ask me why nvr do . " u wanna fail isit ?!" Those sort of things . But wadver laa .


Today's date is 8 of october 2010 , goinna be 9\10\10 soon .
Andd remainingg of only 15days to go andd i'll be sayingg , " HELLO CHINA ! " haha , wow . cant wait . fuuuh ~
I wanna go china is because i wanna exprience the life there n especially the teas there ! =DD
But still need to focus on studies first . Im sure im goinna pass this year . But maybe nt wid flyingg colours, cam biase jgk . But im still aimingg for JCs . hmpft . Its like , i wanna pass but dun wanna study . I wann everythingg to come to me andd i'll just wait n do nothingg . How i wish im a rich girl . haha . everythingg also , " BIK ! MARI SINI ! " hahah .


Andd to jinn , kaw sume orgg pnn kaw suuuuke ! sume pnn kaw " jatohh cinta "
aperhh ? nii yngg terakhir ? world uhs kaaaaw ! hahah . stepp terakhir jerqk . nii laa , jantan2 zaman skgg . haaaahs ~ 

Heyyaww ! =))

Didnt update cuz beingg busy outsides .

End of year exams are also comingg . Im soo nt ready for the exams . Which is startingg TOMORROW . ohh boyy . -.- kindaa stress here too . Im just worry abt my english . If i fail english , i need to pass the subjects tat i'll confirm fail . Dunn wanna repeat 1year ! its really fuckingg waste ! haiz . Only 1 responsibility also hard to comply . hmm .. wonder hw parents handle lots of responsibilities . o.O

Aniwaez , friday after skwel went for SHISHA ! =))

Wid akachan , sue , curl andd lala . Lala followed us late at 6pm when akachan n me hadd to go off earlier . Soo there's nt much fun there . but still its fun . best i've ever hadd ! haha ! wish to go there again .

There's skwel tmr , andd there's exams too tmr . -.-

I dun wanna study , but i wanna pass . -.-  fck , i dunnoe how to change this attitude of mine . hate it siaa . i really2 do need help in these . okayy , i admit that i actually need to be controlled . i need sumone to control me , my attitude andd all . Dun wanna be failingg . But i cant do it myself , just need sumone . But i still dunnoe who will tat sumone be . =(

Miss u , uncle . Ohh God ,  fast the time please !

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wow , tonight was an emotional night for me . Im a missing sumthingg ? idk .

jiwangs kedengaran . haha . Beingg listening to jiwangs songs since jst nw . wow .

Well , currently chatz wid ahcapp yngg ngaa busy buwat records -.- suro buwat 1, skgg berlambak2 . stepp maluu , stepp tknk , pastu last2 , records berlambak . -.- nii laa manusia .

Aniwaez , just nw  , dayy was great but eveningg , sux . Babi peyh China , paitao akuu . Banyakk sgt mkn babi siakk dektuhh . Last min cancel cuz fwens ask him to join them in playingg takraw . like wtf rite ? Bastard ? yeaa , indeed bastard . He's takingg revange . cuz on friday i paitao him already . haha . but heck care .

Hadd a emotional night tonight . =((
Dion called me , andd talk things emotionally .
Denn indra peyh mepekk daa strt , akuu mls nkk lyn . nkk bbl emo2 . -.-
Tbe2 terplay lagu jiwangs den strt to be jiwangs , tats its an emotional night . haha !
Chatted wid naz jst nw , daa laa emotional night , denn she recommended me a video , sad video some more . haha . Lagenda Budak Setan . Starting already like funn . Wanna watch more uhs . Okayy , time nw is 0110am . Wanna go n watch nw or i wnt have time to watch n wake upp late again tmr . -.-
Soo , nitez . =))

Forgive me. ♥

Wow , hadd kinda great dayy today . Beingg laughingg through the whole dayy . In skwel , outside skwel . haha . Andd thnks lala to for the treats just nw . Todayy skwel as per-normal , awesome , haha .

Woke upp late for skwel denn rush rush rush ! lucky ezlink card is still wid me . =)

Denn met lala den slack for awhile den go nw . Will be goingg to airport later . Send my brother for his Medann trip for 2weeks ! hmm .. goinna miss him . Next month , my turn plakk ! Go China ! Yeeppydoo ! =DD Denn , my lil bro , go Batam . haha ! -.-

Aniwaez , cant wait for friday ! haha ! Goingg out to town wid lala n her boyfie n adeqq n nazirah . yeaa .

Just reached home from "study" . -.- lmbt siaa drngg nkk sampai n strt blajar , in fact , takk blajar pnn . -.-

Forgive me mum , forgive me dad , forgive me lil&elder bro .
Forgive me nenek , forgive me fwens , forgive me everyone .
Forgive me for wadever wrong i did , Especially to mummy .
Mum seem to be very worry abt me . She's scare if i were to do stupid stuff n end upp regretingg just like my uncle . Mummy cried just nw . Cuz too worry abt me . -.-
Mummy , as im growingg , my brains are growingg too . Soo please dun worry abt me soo much . I promise to take care of myself n do good things andd not bringg any shame on our family , i promise . I noe whats good n whats bad for me . please , let me be independent . Study ? yeaa , i promise to study too . I'll try to get ur wish andd that is to see me enteringg the JCs . Just need ur support n doa here . 1December2010 is my opperation . SCAAAARYY derhh ! kayy laa , time nw is 1117pm n im tired n sleepy already. =) Soo till here . =)) Byee .

*sobsobb*

Heyy , today i finally got to meet ahcap . But sadly , eventhough its my precious moment, it still hurts me lots .

Whatever that hadd just happened just now is still runningg fresh in my mind . I just love him so much n wans him for myself now n later, forever . He may cann nvr be mine .. if they were to last looongg . =((

Yeaa , ahcap is att . But yet we are not behavingg like a fwen . It really do hurts me alot when whatever we do has sumthingg got to do wid her gf . tkkn akuu nkk hancurkan kebahagiaan orgg kann ? -.-

Soo i guess its best if i go . Its okayy if im hurt by u here . Cuz this heart in me hadd always been hurt by others .

Everytime im wid ahcap especially when there's sumthingg gotta do wid his gf , ive always put on a fake smile . Andd of course it hurts alot ! Andd im like seriously abt to cry just nw ! Andd finally the tears are dropped nw . =(( I just dun understand why its hard for me to get sumone who i really love so much . Cuz each time i love sumbody , that sumbody will be attached wid sumone else . kamarul tat i loved is att , Dion tat i love is att , andd nw ahcap . -.- wtf . when will all diz endd ? Ahcap says im still youngg n have a longg way to go n wans me to concentrate wid my studies n dun think abt relationships stuff . Doesnt he understand wads "come naturally" means ? Its inevitable u see .

haiz , but nvm . i'll suffer again diz time . I guess my life is meant to not to be happy . My eyes now are hurtingg too . no more water ? haish ! -.-

But wadever it is , today's my day tat im tryingg to treasure positively . I cant kiss u as much as i want , i cnt hug u as much as i want andd i also cnt love u as much as i want . But u'll still be in me . Andd im still soo happy tat i met u just

niwaez , End-Of-Year exams are just around the corner . Andd i wanna be promoted to sec4NA .

Need to strt study already . Need to be stronger . Time nw is 1014pm . Andd im off . Till next time . byee ~

(Y) another bad night(Y)

Today hadd a funn n tiringg day in the day . Go raya wid fwens n denn after go home , met lala for a while . Andd bla bla bla .

Wow , best huhh ? ahcap just made me cry n damn worry . I just dun understand wads in ahcap till he cant even share out . Hmm .. but nvm , i wont be like forcingg to tell me wads happeningg in him . Eventhough im his fwen , n his my fwen , but i really love him soo much . He is sumthingg to me . I love him more denn anyone else . Just cant let him go . Andd now , he wants me to forget abt him ! ='(

I still need him . He's still sumone to me no matter wadd . Andd really hope to see him outside my skwel tmr . I miss u , ahcap ! =(

hmm .. haiz , i dunnoe wad more goinna happen .

Well currently , eiss n me are ntg now . We hadd our broke upps yesterday . I just need n wants him to change his whole attiude , tats all . He called me just now n wanted me to love him back . Well , i dunnoe . Im really confuse now . Dun wanna think abt it as End-Of-Year are just around the corner .

Hmm .. Time now is 0203am .

Andd im off to sleep . Nitez readers . =)

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Heyyaa , im currently like havingg some problems here .

Lala , i noe u noe . shaaasshh kayy ? =)) Well , actually problems wid studies n personal stuffs . End-Of-Year Exams are comingg ! 2wks more to like revise . -.- Askingg some help from farihin n cuzy abg nabil .

Personal stuffs ? Let it be in the "twins sisters" oni . =)) Wow , hadd a lot of fun wid lala , eventhough in a text msges pnn , we cann still have fun as if she's beside me . i miss her . =(

Yesterday met bby kecyq , denn ejan n faizal at 888 .

Wow , kecohh . Adeqq , paitaaoo ! -.-

Todayy , goingg out later . Go raya -.- nvr endingg .

Andd tmr , outings again wid abgfanz n adeqzann n maybe meetingg lala . =))

Wow , bile maw study ? -.-

Guess , need to sacrifice 2wks without goingg for any slackings .

I wanna aim for JCs . hmm .. Cann i ? Gotta studyy ! Attitude , need to be change . Andd i need sumone to guide me ! I need indra n farihin to guide me . =(

OMG , sumpahh nenek akuu skgg irritatingg nkk mampos !

Aderh die leyh tanye akuu , " kaw kakak ke adeqq? "

"irfann abg ke adeqq?" kmk , wtf ?

Soalan mepek ttm knn ? haiz . Daa tanye , tanye lagy plakk tuhh . kwk , sumpahh siakk irritatingg .

Denn nw , tanye lagy , nkk gy raye umaa saperh ? nenek tkkn ikot boleyh ? kwk !

Nenek akuu bisingg2 , tanye2 , mk akuu irritated , beyh mrh2  akuu . siakk uhs .

haiyooii !

Time nw is 0637pm . N daddy's home already n im out .

-.-

Todayy , RTU again . -.-

Mondayy went to skwel , RTU . Tuesday nvr come skwel , no RTU . Wednesday came back skwel , RTU again ! until tat pariah say " youu again ! " -.- wtf .

Denn paitao bby again . -.- Lala bby precious also i cannot meet . haiyooii !

Left skwel at 5 . Den go home wid the twins . Miraa , 3days RTU ! haha ! Nice miraa . Goinna have fun in there ! Surely . haha . >.<

Okayy , time now is 0303am ! Andd ive got not much thingg to post soo time to sleep .

 Nitez readers .  =))  ♥♥

Sick ! Sick ! Sick !

Well heyy , Im currently not feeling very well , since yesterday . I feel like im floatingg ! -_-"

Fever is like comingg back too . My throat are hurtingg too . All these made me to have no mood to do anything . Haiz , omg .

Today went to skwel , in the morning already my history teacher called me out . Andd ask why i nvr attend class . -__-" Denn talk2 , den i kena RTU again ! walaaaneeyh ! haiyoooi ! Im afraid my RTU will be on thursday andd tat is tmr , n im meetingg bby kecyq tmr too ! -___-" fuck those RTUs .

My eyes are now tearing andd my headd are floatingg high . That also means , i cant take it anymore , Soo yeaa , till here . =))

♥♥♥♥

Time checked : 0405am

Hadd quite a tiringg day today . But mostly its fun . Very fun . haha .
Didnt went to skwel todayy , cuz im freakingg lazy . Went to poly andd gave all sorts of excuses for an MC .
Denn proceed to cwp meet bby kecyq . Denn walk2 , denn time to go home !
Hmm .. I really hadd a freakingg fuun dayy today , like seriously . ♥ ^^
Actually , im kinda tired n lazy to post more . Soo yeaa ,  till here laa kayy . =))
Nitez . ♥♥

♥♥" I SAW A TREASURE MAP  , ANDD THAT TREASURE MAP LEAD ME TO YOUR HEART ... I JUST WANNA SAY I TREASURE YOUU ANDD I LOVE YOUU ! " ♥♥

freakingg bad day

fuck ! fuck ! fuckers ! mcm sial uhs today ! really a freakingg dayy ! bad luckers ! urgh s ! -.-

Tawuhh tkk dtg skolaa uhs tadi , menyakitkan hati jerqk !

Everythingg was ruined today ! 13 was really a freakingg s number . Every month on the 13th , there's always sumthingg happeningg . Wads really up wid 13's ? freaked out siahh .

In the morningg , it all started already .

I was forced to wake upp by my ganny -.- that wanted me to go to skwel so much despite the fact that im freakingg lazy . Came skwel late , andd as per-normal , ezlink was taken away . In class , freakingg results . Like i knew it already . After skwel , RTU ! mcm sial .-.- RTU , fun huhh ? akuu sorang . -.-

While in the room , lots of imaginations was found in my brains -.-

He's the only guy there , andd im the only gerl there . Soo its me n him the that 1room . cb , scary siah .

That "DM" , rtu teacher , talk n talk to me about my future , studies , behaviour andd rules . Like , wth ?

Who the freakingg hell wanna go RTU andd stay in there for about 3-4hrs doingg nothingg ? Rite ? He keep on sayingg dun waste my time go RTU laa , dun break the skwel rules laa n wadever shit it is .

Andd because of this , bby kecyq got mad , really mad i suppose .

Me n kecyq are far different , u see . He's sumthingg , andd im like nothingg . A total zero . Now , he's soo damn upset till dun wanna reply me . But my feelings are worse . I feel really bad n hopeless . Never felt this way before . Mixed feelings here .

But nvm , lucky he's able understand but nt that good enuf !! He wanna revenge ! hmpft !
My studies are becomingg from bad to worse . I dun wanna lose face by failingg . I wanna study alreaady ! sumone ? study wid me ? but must have a " teacher " cuz if not , i confirm wont study .
Our corhort daa laa easy to enter poly , so dun wanna waste the chance .
Gotta buck upp alreaaady ! Now , guess thats all will be posted .
Soo till here . ♥

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bloggy maaati !  -.-

time checked : 0130am

currently havingg a conversation at msn wid syaiful n cuzzy while waitingg for maahh bby kecyq. =DD

lembab nkk mampos ! haha !

Okayy dearest fwens , everyone , I guess i will have to confess tat im currently attached wid ismail ! =DD

Ismail not JINN , but Ismail aka eiss kecyqq . And there he is ! ==>>>

Okayy, wen are we formed together ? Its on the 11th of september 2010 fwens . =)) Wanna apologise if i've been soo secretive all this while . Its totally not tat i dun wanna tell u guys , but since u guys wanna noe, denn i guess its for u to find out ! =P

 BRB ! BRB ! sumbody's callingg . =DD

okayy , im back .

Without realisingg i didnt even off my lappy for the 1whole day today. Soo tat also mean tat i took 2days to update diz 1 short post. wth -.- Aniwaez , hari raya diz year was alright . Everyone is still happy eventhough beloved uncle is nt here with us . Tuesday, we get too see him . And im still thinkingg whether to follow , or not to follow . If i were to follow , i wont be goingg to skwel. Soo yeaa , me here still thinking . A letter that was sent by him recently was really a damn sadd letter till couldnt stop cryingg . How i wish we could fast forward everythingg in life . Really miss n need him now . =((

Hmm .. tomorrow skwel starts , and homework ? damn , nt done yet !
raya , raya , raya , andd im nw soo tired of skwel works . Haiz ! Cann i control the rules n regulations ? haaahs . Time now is 0334am . Soo i guess till here . Im off to sleeeepp . Goodbyes n nitez readers . =))

ps . i miss my fwens, mostly my uncle soo much . <3 =(

andd of course, nt forgetting imyt kecyq ! <3

specially muuuuuuaacchkz to u guys <3 =DD

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blog mati , again.  -.-

sry blogy for nt updatingg . Beingg busy "studying" at night . Damn , exam papers were easy(if i really study) . Feel like retaking my exams again . Really regret not studyingg properly cuz the papers were really damn easy yaaaww !

hmm .. wad a day . currently listening to the songs tat uncle used to listen .

sobsob* really missing him damn bad siaa . Listening to his songs really made me miss him soo much .

Just received a letter from him jst nw. =( andd omg , everyone is cryingg . especially my nanny. ;'((

hmm .. but wadever happens , i cnt wait for hari rayaaaa !! HAHA !

Hope diz year's hari raya will be as per-normal . No sad2 or cry2 . Must be happy ! =))

DIz year hari raya will be at my house as nanny is here wid me . Cant wait uhs ! i wanna play bunga apppii ! =D jalan2 raye wid fwens . waaahh ! cannt waaaiit ! haha . im goingg geylangg nw wid family buy raya stuff ! haaahs . till here denn .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MUSLIMA ! =))
wasalammualiakum.


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andd aniwaez kwn2 kuu , kte cam daa lmr gituhh knn tkk lpk ?
akuu rinduu uhs lpk2 like we alwaez do .
jom, kte lpk again ?

sleepless night

Time checked : 1145am .

Another sleepless night and still staringg at the screen . Wonderingg when will all this endd .

I hate it when everything that we wanted never could we get . Specially when u cant get everyone that u love . Not getting whatever things we wanted is nt as worse as tryingg to get the person that we love , or worse, love badly . Currently listening to jb songs and chatz wid umairah cuzy n dion .

Omg , without noticingg , i fell into the traps where i fell for dion . But sadly , i cnn nvr get dion . Youu see, everyone tat i wanted i cnt get . But those who im nt interested in , is infornt of me . omg .

Soo i guess , since exams are jst around the corner , i'll jst forget abt all this and stay strongg n focus . Maybe all this love thingy are nt meant for me yet ? hmm ..

Well , in skwel , ntg much happen . Tomorrow , teacher's day rehersal !

Andd problems with the guitars for naz's n amirul's .  -__-"

waaaahh ! Wonderingg what's goingg to happen tmr . Hope everything will go smoothly tmr . =))

Andd good luck to all my band mates , all the way (the)young devoters ! =))

Hope we dnt stop here TYD .  =))

UpUpAllTheWaaayyy ! ~ 

OMG

omg , blog mati . -__-

This is where i hate, blog mati ! haha .

Well hello, blog mati. haha ! okayy daa , stopp it . -_-

Long time nvr update cuz, busy n lazy . haahs ~ Anw, yesterday was Amirul Asyraf 15 Birthday .

Had lots of fun eventhough for few hrs at geylangg . Meet at 630 but end upp at 7 denn board 966 . haaha . Sampai aderh orgg say tat org yng gy malay dance lagy cepat dari kte . HAHA ! haiz , guys . 1hr or nt even 1hr oso, still can sleep . haiyoo . Reached geylangg at abt 8 dhen go eat, jln2 tgk baju raye . Dhen took cab wid lala back home. =))

Currently, chat wid lala, umairah cuzy, zarf andd zann(haha, padahal  boleyh bbl ehh kt umaa) .

In a while, cuzy's comingg ! =)) Now, im hungry ! thirsty ! tired ! sleeeeepy ! jst nw didnt wake up for sahuuur !  Haiz . Dunnoe wadd to post already .

Soo, till here dhenn .

Just wait for another episode aitez . =))

Episode 99  :D

a big different year . =((

the young uncle that always put joy in my life

Yesterday was a very tiringg day . I didnt get much rest . 6am till 2am no napp .

Reached home at abt 11+pm . Couldnt sleep till 2am . Yesterday was also a very sad dayy till everyone cnt control . Includingg me . =(  In skwel ngaa happy2 audition den mum called daa down gyle denn need to rush to toa payoh . sampai tk sempat nkk ambek bagg .  i was freakingg sad andd my tears just cnt stopp rollingg down my cheek . Well, diz year goinna be a very big diff year . My nenek keep on askingg, "aperh agaknyerh busu tgh buwat skgg ? " =( sadd huhh . feel like cryingg already seyh nw ! ohh my gosh ! 14mnths . very longg . im really missing him nw . Every nite b4 goingg to sleep, nenek will talk to me abt my 1and only beloved uncle wid tears in her eyes . Wonderingg hw would hari raya diz yr would be . 14mnths, im goinna miss my uncle . =(

 i wanna visit him as often as i cnn wid my granmother . but i know i cnt .

there's only 2questions tat will be repeatingly asked by my nenek . andd tat is , " aperh agaknyerh busu ngaa bikin ? " andd " mcm manerh  entah hari raye tahun ni nnt ?  " 

 i'll nt be able to go to my nenek house at toa payoh for 14mnths . Im goinna miss toa payoh atmosphere, uncle's toa payoh beautiful house , and toa payoh neighbours . But wads most, im goinna miss u, beloved uncle  . 14mnths, anitink cnn happen . Well i just goinna take good care of nenek as he put hopes on me to takecare of nenek for him . i'll promise u uncle . me either dun wan u to regret twice . dun wann the same thingg happen again like wad really happened wid late granfather n u .

i dun wan banana fruit 2times, haaahs ~ but im here will always doakan busu di bulan suci dan mulia ini . Semoga allah berikan busu kekuatan dan kesabaran dan rahmat.  aqilah will always remember u andd ur advices .

Love u much

 as my uncle . =))

To my fwens , sry i go off earlier tat day .

From today onwards jgk, nenek akuu daa tinggal nann akuu .

Andd akuu jgk tkleyh lpk2 slalu like we always do .

Work ? I dun think im allowed too .

14mnths bebb .

Its more than a year . =(

Soo, i hope u guys understand yarhs . =))

missingg u :((

Now time is 2am sharp .
I hate midnitez, cuz i'll gt bored andd start to read people's blog, view people's fb . Every page i click, there's always at least a few pages on them andd their loved ones . OMG ! im soo down . i miss my past soo badly . i miss nt beingg solo . i miss beingg loved . i miss beingg hugged . i miss otp wid sumone . akuu rindu laa sgt2 dimanje dann dibelai oleh seseorangg jejaka .  i miss everythingg in the past . Goshh, hw i wish i could rewind it. :((  But with a new guy of course, i guess ?
I know people will say its not the time yet . But we're humans too . "Yound kids" like me too have feelings like YOU "adults" . We do sometimes need to be loved dann dimanja . i miss all those . But wadd cann i do ? i dun wanna be goingg around findingg guys rite ? nonono, of course nt . i wanna end all this . i've promised to myself to end all this until i reached out of silingg maybe ? haha ! idk ..

Heckcare, nw im freakingg cold. Freezinggg ! buuuur ! haha .
Just nw went to witness the fireworks at wdlnds area only . It was funn, great though . We went to the town but jams all over . Den gt fed-upp, see at wdlnds only . haha . Denn go take my bro fron YOV denn reached home . Rabaak ehh ? NAtional day also my bro need to go work . haiyooo . Tmr plakk, will be goingg to JB wid cuzy . Andd my house, there's no one home .  Andd im bored rite nw, currently havingg a conversation wid afiq and jinn . I think naz is bz for nw. Cuz she's nt as hyper as she is at this time . Lala, i hvnt chat wid lala for quite a longg time in msn . Maybe she's bz too . But ohh well, its okayy . My eyes are nw closingg, soo i guess its time for me to go to sleep . Soo till here, nitez ! =)

damn tired -_-

Im soosoosoo freakingg tired today .

I didnt get much rest at home as im busy with outdoors .

Andd EYEBAGS ! urgh ! hate it lots mann !

Yesterday morningg in school, received a text from my mum . A shockingg text though . That my granny was admitted in Tan Tock Seng Hospital . Whyy shockingg cuz she nvr nvr fall sick b4 . She always look strongg . Eventhough her legs are not that strongg . Lucky yesterday got half-day school . I rushed back home andd rush rush rush, Reached ttsh, get to see my grandmother for awhile dhen must sit downstairs until night when its time for us to go back home. -_- Freakingg hospital ! Menyusahkan akuu jerqk . I wanna complain seyh ! :(( Only 4people cann go andd see patient . Dhen if any of my aunties or other grandmother come, my cuzins, bro andd me have to go down. Its like turn by turn to visit my granny. :(( Saaad eyhhh ?? Haiz, sue u hospital ! Like *tututu* ! But lucky today my nenek gt discharged . No need to wait turn by turn, go down upp down upp .

Very leceh . Thankfully my nenek is nw alilbit fine . But still on medication . old peoples, its kinda normal though . Especially for someone who's in my grandmother age . Standard laa ehh .

Ohh well.

Todayy, pagy2 daa kua. haha, tired seyh .

Yesterday reached home at 11+ . Todayy, reached home also at 11+.

Tired seyh. Soosoosoo freakingg tired . My eyes are now abt to be closingg soon . haha . Aniwaez, todayy in the morningg went to the hardcourt for some concerts . Dhen afternoon at abt 4 we went to jamm our song for teacher's day at yishun . Dhen proceed peninsula, company lala buy some stuff. Dhen tao payoh meet my cuzzins and my one andd only beloved granny. Dhenn nw home sweet home. =)) phew . haaahs . Thanks lala for the meal at magic WOK . haha . Sorry didnt call u when i reached tao payoh, akuu lupe ! haha . Daa meet cuzy kt tao payoh interchange dhen i forgot. :D

Now time 130am, dun wanna text u cuz maybe i might be disturbingg u. So if u read this, sry ehh lala, haha. akuu lupe nkk text .

Hmm .. Really hadd soosoo much funn with fwens andd families .
Thnks guys for makingg the dayy soo funn. without u guys, theres gt no all this. Appreciate it much. =))
Till here, nitez. Byee ~

unexpected

Todayy, hadd some unhappy things goingg on between me fie AGAIN.  -__-
Just dun understand why she cant admit her mistakes , till today . She said i mepek , i stepp gerek . Bile akuu stakat ckp yngg die prasann . She didint wanna admit when she herself said tat right in my face infront of everybody . I dun mind if she dun wanna admit her mistakes . I lovingg it in fact . =) Cuz whenever she said sry, she nvr mean it . Thousands times of sry, thousands times of repeatingg mistakes . Andd i cnt believe she cried just nw . haha ! Didnt expect that to happen though . haaahs . But nvm , let her continue as im lovingg it ! =) I hate fwens that always put shame on their own fwens . I truly hate .

Ohh well , dropping subject.

Todayy at MacD kecoooooh ! haha . Funny + Funn = ? mat jogangg stepp gerekk nann nenek ketiak berbuluh cam monyet . haha . While eatingg, there's a free show . People behind eatingg also cann stand up and see without helpingg . Freakingg singaporeans . haiyaaai . But it was kindaa funny though . haha ! After that rwent home . Tomorrow national day . Tomorrow also must wake up early fetch adorable as she's paiseyh dunnoe whyy . Currently chattingg wid naz, fie  andd umairahcuzy.  =)  Thats all for today, till here . Byee ~

To adorable nazirah , chill andd be patience with ur life okayy . Handle it with care . HAHA ! =)

Ngee Ann Polytechnic

Todayy went to Ngee Ann poly that has no different with si ling secondary school.  -.-

But it was funn though . Otw there , in the bus , mira was sittingg quietly . But nt in the theatre andd back to school on the bus . She made some speech of "prefect" english , on the bus . All the way from Ngee Ann , she just cnt stopp makingg speech . At Ngee Ann , we gt to see other school"s art work andd stuff like that . Hidayah looked small sized person . But she dnt eat like a small sized people . She was like a year livingg food .  Keep on takingg more food when there's still food in her mouth .

Even before we board the bus , she ran andd take more .  -.- But ohh well , its funn though . Laughingg through out the whole thingg . But not when i reached woodlands and i found out somethingg that make me feel reaaaallly daamn jealous ! haha ! yes , i am . She hadd done it . But not yet me . I wanna do it . But im just scared of the painn . im afraid i might not take the painn . But im still thinkingg of doingg it or nt . Should i or should i nt ? haha . SHOULD ! ^^

=)

Heyyaa , todayy was a funn dayy . Beingg laughingg through out the dayy . Haha .
School was okayy, jst nw hadd a SS test . Teacher jst cnt stopp staringg at me . Like as if im copyingg .
After that went to eat at MacD denn go library denn dewann denn baruu home ! heeeeehs ~ =)
Well lets talk about afiqah for today . Yeaa, kinda pity her sometimes . But sometimes also she jst need to feel the feelingg of beingg smaaack ! Jst nw my fwens had a talk wid her . Her face , yaa allah ! Soo innocent ! HAHA ! Sometimes when i go wid Lala, sue andd all, without her wid me , i feel soo wronged . Cuz for leavingg her alone halfway . Easy say , jst nt like before . But if i were to go back in my past , my life would be soo damn boringg . Andd i'll an anti-social person . Never wish to be like that . But well , at least i talk to her , spend time wid her in school . Since we cnt after school . Soo , there's some fairness there . =)

Tomorrow , will be going to the Ngee Ann Poly for an art exhibition .
Wuuuuhuuu ! Seroonooook !  ^^
See, hw lucky art students are . Dapat gy trip2 . HAHA ! Wonderingg wadd D&T students doingg , potongg kayuu ? haha ! LOL . Potongg laa krngg sampai jadi aperh ? Sampann ehh ? LOL . mepekk siaak . Okayy , jkjk d&t students .
Okayy , im tired nw . Andd goingg to sleep already . Soo yeaa , nitez !  =)

Btw, to all my fwens . Krngg tawuhh akuu knn ? Akuu suke jkjk around . It may be harsh but i nvr mean it as u'all noe . Soo, pape krngg dun take it serious cuz i was jokingg around . Didnt mean anything at all . Soo yeaa, hope u guys understand . Andd i noe u guys will . =)

mix feelings

Heyy , lets last strt off wid this week first .

This week was great . Awesome though . But nt comes to the weekends . I hate weekends . I used to love weekends lots . But sumone ruined it . ruined it damn much . Andd i hate u for that ! Guess who ? Yeaa, my mum . She jst cnt like see me havingg my own life on only saturdays ? We have sundays too rite . Sundays is for us to spend time wid families . Saturdays is fwens outingg day andd sunday is family outing day . %days of studyingg, 1day enjoy wid fwens 1day wid family . Nw thats a complete happy enjoyment week . There's always a purpose for everythingg . Still she cnt see that ? Last wekk, paitao my fwens . This week also . Paitao againn ! OMG ! I dnt wanna be looked down by my own fwens . I dun wanna be label as paitao kia . My plans were all ruined . My mum just like cnt see me happy enjoyingg my time wid fwens . She said there 5days, monday-friday for me to spend time wid fwens . Tkkn nkk gy town or go jln2 on friday after school rite ? Doesnt make sense . Haiz, lets jst forget abt my mum . She's makingg my day freakingg down .

Next week, im goinna be damn busy . For sure . Bz wid wadd ? Soo bz wid hw tat is nt done . Cuz tuesday i'll be going to the Ngee Ann polytechnic for some arts exhibition . Thursday , another art exhibition . Hw, is addingg on to my list ! Nw itself hw nt done yet . Composition, urgh . malas nyerh nkk bikin . My art still nt done . Art is actually really easy . But its just too stress when u've gt no idea at all . Thats the part i hate ! omg . Andd then next2 week, Fastingg Month ! PUAAAASE . Need to wake upp early and SHAHUR ! -.- But cnt wait for all that ! Especially Hari Raya ! fuuuuuuh ! Cant wait luhh seyh ! ^^ Dpt duit raye, boleyh spend2, shopping2 ! ^^ wuuhuuhu . tkk sabar nyerh ! =) But confirm this year wont be the same . Maybe this year my nenek raye at my house . As there some problems wid my uncle . Confirm nanges takk berlaguuu ! hahah !

Yesterday gt Nenek Timah's kenduri doa selamat . They'll go for the umrah for the second time .

Funn seyh . Dpt naek aeroplane . Dpt beli chocolate kt airport . haha . Cam kedai mamak bwk blk tkderh jual gituhh knn ? haha .

Todayy, went to the kaylong. Fun also seyh got the chance to see fresh fishes . Not only fishes . There's frogs too ! haha . best ! i stared at the frogs for quite a longg time . haha . Dunnoe why . There's of course shrimps andd many2 more. We went there cuz my dad wanted us to try eatingg an EEL . Andd its soo eeeeww . We gt to see hw the people there cuts open the eel andd into pieces . I gt to see hw they cut the frog . Im sure if u guys see it too, u'll runningg metres away . HAHA . It was soo evil ! Hidop2 ehh, drngg jst chope off their heads and den took off the skin . Very disgustingg . EEEEEWW . haha .

Well till here, i gt to do my english compo nw . If nt 1day RTU.  -.-

Soo yeaa , Byee .

Ohh yes , btw to my dearest fwens sry klaw akuu byk paitao krngg . If krngg nkk go jamming, jst go ahead . cuz bass like nt soo important cuz nt the main thing . Akuu tkk kesah . Asalkan krngg confident nann krngg nyerh position . Thats important . Sbb position krngg is the most sound people heard . Okayy, all the best . Andd hope kte dpt make it through . =))

prayingg hardd !

heyy, todayy ? was quite funn . Sue last min told us she didnt come school . If i didnt call her, i wouldnt know she's nt comingg to school .  -_- Duringg ps we did some relationshipp thingyy . haha . was fun though . After school when for the fas for an hr den go 38 for a while and reached home .


Well currently, im worringg abt tmr's result for my uncle . Scare if he's goinna be inside tat "enclosed room" . If he's goinna be in there , my grandma will be stayingg wid me untill maybe he's out ? Prayyingg hard he cnn escape from all this . If she stays wid us here in wdlnds, i'll have to go back home straight from school . No more slackingg for me . Or maybe no saturday outings too ? I pity my grandma n uncle soo damn much . I really feel real damn sadd for them . Especially my grandma who is already quite old . Die daa laa kurus nkk mampos ! Dunno if she's goinna be fine or not . I think she will . I'll take very good care of my grandmother as she's the only grandmother im closed to . I dun wan my uncle to regret againn . I dun wann the past to rewind againn to my uncle . When i say past means nt the past tat he did recently . The past tat im talkingg abt is the really old past 1 . When i still live in my old house at admiralty . I dun wanna say anithink nw cuz things have nt happen yet . Cuz i believe every word tat comes out from our mouth is a pray for them n for me . Soo, im nt goinna say anitink yet for nw . Cuz i dun wann it to happen . Just hopingg my uncle n grandma will be strongg tmr . =))