emotional night

wow , tonight was an emotional night for me . Im a missing sumthingg ? idk .

jiwangs kedengaran . haha . Beingg listening to jiwangs songs since jst nw . wow .

Well , currently chatz wid ahcapp yngg ngaa busy buwat records -.- suro buwat 1, skgg berlambak2 . stepp maluu , stepp tknk , pastu last2 , records berlambak . -.- nii laa manusia .

Aniwaez , just nw  , dayy was great but eveningg , sux . Babi peyh China , paitao akuu . Banyakk sgt mkn babi siakk dektuhh . Last min cancel cuz fwens ask him to join them in playingg takraw . like wtf rite ? Bastard ? yeaa , indeed bastard . He's takingg revange . cuz on friday i paitao him already . haha . but heck care .

Hadd a emotional night tonight . =((
Dion called me , andd talk things emotionally .
Denn indra peyh mepekk daa strt , akuu mls nkk lyn . nkk bbl emo2 . -.-
Tbe2 terplay lagu jiwangs den strt to be jiwangs , tats its an emotional night . haha !
Chatted wid naz jst nw , daa laa emotional night , denn she recommended me a video , sad video some more . haha . Lagenda Budak Setan . Starting already like funn . Wanna watch more uhs . Okayy , time nw is 0110am . Wanna go n watch nw or i wnt have time to watch n wake upp late again tmr . -.-
Soo , nitez . =))

Forgive me. ♥

Wow , hadd kinda great dayy today . Beingg laughingg through the whole dayy . In skwel , outside skwel . haha . Andd thnks lala to for the treats just nw . Todayy skwel as per-normal , awesome , haha .

Woke upp late for skwel denn rush rush rush ! lucky ezlink card is still wid me . =)

Denn met lala den slack for awhile den go nw . Will be goingg to airport later . Send my brother for his Medann trip for 2weeks ! hmm .. goinna miss him . Next month , my turn plakk ! Go China ! Yeeppydoo ! =DD Denn , my lil bro , go Batam . haha ! -.-

Aniwaez , cant wait for friday ! haha ! Goingg out to town wid lala n her boyfie n adeqq n nazirah . yeaa .

Just reached home from "study" . -.- lmbt siaa drngg nkk sampai n strt blajar , in fact , takk blajar pnn . -.-

Forgive me mum , forgive me dad , forgive me lil&elder bro .
Forgive me nenek , forgive me fwens , forgive me everyone .
Forgive me for wadever wrong i did , Especially to mummy .
Mum seem to be very worry abt me . She's scare if i were to do stupid stuff n end upp regretingg just like my uncle . Mummy cried just nw . Cuz too worry abt me . -.-
Mummy , as im growingg , my brains are growingg too . Soo please dun worry abt me soo much . I promise to take care of myself n do good things andd not bringg any shame on our family , i promise . I noe whats good n whats bad for me . please , let me be independent . Study ? yeaa , i promise to study too . I'll try to get ur wish andd that is to see me enteringg the JCs . Just need ur support n doa here . 1December2010 is my opperation . SCAAAARYY derhh ! kayy laa , time nw is 1117pm n im tired n sleepy already. =) Soo till here . =)) Byee .

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Heyy , today i finally got to meet ahcap . But sadly , eventhough its my precious moment, it still hurts me lots .

Whatever that hadd just happened just now is still runningg fresh in my mind . I just love him so much n wans him for myself now n later, forever . He may cann nvr be mine .. if they were to last looongg . =((

Yeaa , ahcap is att . But yet we are not behavingg like a fwen . It really do hurts me alot when whatever we do has sumthingg got to do wid her gf . tkkn akuu nkk hancurkan kebahagiaan orgg kann ? -.-

Soo i guess its best if i go . Its okayy if im hurt by u here . Cuz this heart in me hadd always been hurt by others .

Everytime im wid ahcap especially when there's sumthingg gotta do wid his gf , ive always put on a fake smile . Andd of course it hurts alot ! Andd im like seriously abt to cry just nw ! Andd finally the tears are dropped nw . =(( I just dun understand why its hard for me to get sumone who i really love so much . Cuz each time i love sumbody , that sumbody will be attached wid sumone else . kamarul tat i loved is att , Dion tat i love is att , andd nw ahcap . -.- wtf . when will all diz endd ? Ahcap says im still youngg n have a longg way to go n wans me to concentrate wid my studies n dun think abt relationships stuff . Doesnt he understand wads "come naturally" means ? Its inevitable u see .

haiz , but nvm . i'll suffer again diz time . I guess my life is meant to not to be happy . My eyes now are hurtingg too . no more water ? haish ! -.-

But wadever it is , today's my day tat im tryingg to treasure positively . I cant kiss u as much as i want , i cnt hug u as much as i want andd i also cnt love u as much as i want . But u'll still be in me . Andd im still soo happy tat i met u just

niwaez , End-Of-Year exams are just around the corner . Andd i wanna be promoted to sec4NA .

Need to strt study already . Need to be stronger . Time nw is 1014pm . Andd im off . Till next time . byee ~

(Y) another bad night(Y)

Today hadd a funn n tiringg day in the day . Go raya wid fwens n denn after go home , met lala for a while . Andd bla bla bla .

Wow , best huhh ? ahcap just made me cry n damn worry . I just dun understand wads in ahcap till he cant even share out . Hmm .. but nvm , i wont be like forcingg to tell me wads happeningg in him . Eventhough im his fwen , n his my fwen , but i really love him soo much . He is sumthingg to me . I love him more denn anyone else . Just cant let him go . Andd now , he wants me to forget abt him ! ='(

I still need him . He's still sumone to me no matter wadd . Andd really hope to see him outside my skwel tmr . I miss u , ahcap ! =(

hmm .. haiz , i dunnoe wad more goinna happen .

Well currently , eiss n me are ntg now . We hadd our broke upps yesterday . I just need n wants him to change his whole attiude , tats all . He called me just now n wanted me to love him back . Well , i dunnoe . Im really confuse now . Dun wanna think abt it as End-Of-Year are just around the corner .

Hmm .. Time now is 0203am .

Andd im off to sleep . Nitez readers . =)

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Heyyaa , im currently like havingg some problems here .

Lala , i noe u noe . shaaasshh kayy ? =)) Well , actually problems wid studies n personal stuffs . End-Of-Year Exams are comingg ! 2wks more to like revise . -.- Askingg some help from farihin n cuzy abg nabil .

Personal stuffs ? Let it be in the "twins sisters" oni . =)) Wow , hadd a lot of fun wid lala , eventhough in a text msges pnn , we cann still have fun as if she's beside me . i miss her . =(

Yesterday met bby kecyq , denn ejan n faizal at 888 .

Wow , kecohh . Adeqq , paitaaoo ! -.-

Todayy , goingg out later . Go raya -.- nvr endingg .

Andd tmr , outings again wid abgfanz n adeqzann n maybe meetingg lala . =))

Wow , bile maw study ? -.-

Guess , need to sacrifice 2wks without goingg for any slackings .

I wanna aim for JCs . hmm .. Cann i ? Gotta studyy ! Attitude , need to be change . Andd i need sumone to guide me ! I need indra n farihin to guide me . =(

OMG , sumpahh nenek akuu skgg irritatingg nkk mampos !

Aderh die leyh tanye akuu , " kaw kakak ke adeqq? "

"irfann abg ke adeqq?" kmk , wtf ?

Soalan mepek ttm knn ? haiz . Daa tanye , tanye lagy plakk tuhh . kwk , sumpahh siakk irritatingg .

Denn nw , tanye lagy , nkk gy raye umaa saperh ? nenek tkkn ikot boleyh ? kwk !

Nenek akuu bisingg2 , tanye2 , mk akuu irritated , beyh mrh2  akuu . siakk uhs .

haiyooii !

Time nw is 0637pm . N daddy's home already n im out .

-.-

Todayy , RTU again . -.-

Mondayy went to skwel , RTU . Tuesday nvr come skwel , no RTU . Wednesday came back skwel , RTU again ! until tat pariah say " youu again ! " -.- wtf .

Denn paitao bby again . -.- Lala bby precious also i cannot meet . haiyooii !

Left skwel at 5 . Den go home wid the twins . Miraa , 3days RTU ! haha ! Nice miraa . Goinna have fun in there ! Surely . haha . >.<

Okayy , time now is 0303am ! Andd ive got not much thingg to post soo time to sleep .

 Nitez readers .  =))  ♥♥

Sick ! Sick ! Sick !

Well heyy , Im currently not feeling very well , since yesterday . I feel like im floatingg ! -_-"

Fever is like comingg back too . My throat are hurtingg too . All these made me to have no mood to do anything . Haiz , omg .

Today went to skwel , in the morning already my history teacher called me out . Andd ask why i nvr attend class . -__-" Denn talk2 , den i kena RTU again ! walaaaneeyh ! haiyoooi ! Im afraid my RTU will be on thursday andd tat is tmr , n im meetingg bby kecyq tmr too ! -___-" fuck those RTUs .

My eyes are now tearing andd my headd are floatingg high . That also means , i cant take it anymore , Soo yeaa , till here . =))

♥♥♥♥

Time checked : 0405am

Hadd quite a tiringg day today . But mostly its fun . Very fun . haha .
Didnt went to skwel todayy , cuz im freakingg lazy . Went to poly andd gave all sorts of excuses for an MC .
Denn proceed to cwp meet bby kecyq . Denn walk2 , denn time to go home !
Hmm .. I really hadd a freakingg fuun dayy today , like seriously . ♥ ^^
Actually , im kinda tired n lazy to post more . Soo yeaa ,  till here laa kayy . =))
Nitez . ♥♥

♥♥" I SAW A TREASURE MAP  , ANDD THAT TREASURE MAP LEAD ME TO YOUR HEART ... I JUST WANNA SAY I TREASURE YOUU ANDD I LOVE YOUU ! " ♥♥

freakingg bad day

fuck ! fuck ! fuckers ! mcm sial uhs today ! really a freakingg dayy ! bad luckers ! urgh s ! -.-

Tawuhh tkk dtg skolaa uhs tadi , menyakitkan hati jerqk !

Everythingg was ruined today ! 13 was really a freakingg s number . Every month on the 13th , there's always sumthingg happeningg . Wads really up wid 13's ? freaked out siahh .

In the morningg , it all started already .

I was forced to wake upp by my ganny -.- that wanted me to go to skwel so much despite the fact that im freakingg lazy . Came skwel late , andd as per-normal , ezlink was taken away . In class , freakingg results . Like i knew it already . After skwel , RTU ! mcm sial .-.- RTU , fun huhh ? akuu sorang . -.-

While in the room , lots of imaginations was found in my brains -.-

He's the only guy there , andd im the only gerl there . Soo its me n him the that 1room . cb , scary siah .

That "DM" , rtu teacher , talk n talk to me about my future , studies , behaviour andd rules . Like , wth ?

Who the freakingg hell wanna go RTU andd stay in there for about 3-4hrs doingg nothingg ? Rite ? He keep on sayingg dun waste my time go RTU laa , dun break the skwel rules laa n wadever shit it is .

Andd because of this , bby kecyq got mad , really mad i suppose .

Me n kecyq are far different , u see . He's sumthingg , andd im like nothingg . A total zero . Now , he's soo damn upset till dun wanna reply me . But my feelings are worse . I feel really bad n hopeless . Never felt this way before . Mixed feelings here .

But nvm , lucky he's able understand but nt that good enuf !! He wanna revenge ! hmpft !
My studies are becomingg from bad to worse . I dun wanna lose face by failingg . I wanna study alreaady ! sumone ? study wid me ? but must have a " teacher " cuz if not , i confirm wont study .
Our corhort daa laa easy to enter poly , so dun wanna waste the chance .
Gotta buck upp alreaaady ! Now , guess thats all will be posted .
Soo till here . ♥

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bloggy maaati !  -.-

time checked : 0130am

currently havingg a conversation at msn wid syaiful n cuzzy while waitingg for maahh bby kecyq. =DD

lembab nkk mampos ! haha !

Okayy dearest fwens , everyone , I guess i will have to confess tat im currently attached wid ismail ! =DD

Ismail not JINN , but Ismail aka eiss kecyqq . And there he is ! ==>>>

Okayy, wen are we formed together ? Its on the 11th of september 2010 fwens . =)) Wanna apologise if i've been soo secretive all this while . Its totally not tat i dun wanna tell u guys , but since u guys wanna noe, denn i guess its for u to find out ! =P

 BRB ! BRB ! sumbody's callingg . =DD

okayy , im back .

Without realisingg i didnt even off my lappy for the 1whole day today. Soo tat also mean tat i took 2days to update diz 1 short post. wth -.- Aniwaez , hari raya diz year was alright . Everyone is still happy eventhough beloved uncle is nt here with us . Tuesday, we get too see him . And im still thinkingg whether to follow , or not to follow . If i were to follow , i wont be goingg to skwel. Soo yeaa , me here still thinking . A letter that was sent by him recently was really a damn sadd letter till couldnt stop cryingg . How i wish we could fast forward everythingg in life . Really miss n need him now . =((

Hmm .. tomorrow skwel starts , and homework ? damn , nt done yet !
raya , raya , raya , andd im nw soo tired of skwel works . Haiz ! Cann i control the rules n regulations ? haaahs . Time now is 0334am . Soo i guess till here . Im off to sleeeepp . Goodbyes n nitez readers . =))

ps . i miss my fwens, mostly my uncle soo much . <3 =(

andd of course, nt forgetting imyt kecyq ! <3

specially muuuuuuaacchkz to u guys <3 =DD

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blog mati , again.  -.-

sry blogy for nt updatingg . Beingg busy "studying" at night . Damn , exam papers were easy(if i really study) . Feel like retaking my exams again . Really regret not studyingg properly cuz the papers were really damn easy yaaaww !

hmm .. wad a day . currently listening to the songs tat uncle used to listen .

sobsob* really missing him damn bad siaa . Listening to his songs really made me miss him soo much .

Just received a letter from him jst nw. =( andd omg , everyone is cryingg . especially my nanny. ;'((

hmm .. but wadever happens , i cnt wait for hari rayaaaa !! HAHA !

Hope diz year's hari raya will be as per-normal . No sad2 or cry2 . Must be happy ! =))

DIz year hari raya will be at my house as nanny is here wid me . Cant wait uhs ! i wanna play bunga apppii ! =D jalan2 raye wid fwens . waaahh ! cannt waaaiit ! haha . im goingg geylangg nw wid family buy raya stuff ! haaahs . till here denn .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MUSLIMA ! =))
wasalammualiakum.


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andd aniwaez kwn2 kuu , kte cam daa lmr gituhh knn tkk lpk ?
akuu rinduu uhs lpk2 like we alwaez do .
jom, kte lpk again ?