chillziie

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

the moment when you get scoldings when they do something that is alright to them but not alright when u do it to them . haaishh , that sucks , isnt it ?
haishh , omg . my heart hurts more . 
im cant update everyday cuz im busy working already now . i cant sleep well , i got work tmr . 
my cough is real bad till it causes my throat and heart to be hurt soo bad . yaa allah ! tolong laaaa . baby just came and bought me medicine for coughs . appreciate that much hunny(":
now , i got this feeling stuck on my mind . the sucks feeling . damn it ! sometimes i dun wanna talk cuz it hurts . i dun wanna type it out , cuz im just lazy to think it back again . 
i just wanna go to the sea side and cool myself down . like seriously . 
maybe nxt week ? i wanna go ECP or changi . 
i dun wanna go waterfront cuz it makes not really much a difference for me .my heart really do hurts now . im gonna go for a smoke . i hate it with people give me attitude , but i'll ignore them . i just hate when YOU showed me ur freakingg attitude . i nvr tend to keep , butr thats me . like i said , let it just be me . dun youu . i wanna m.i.a . i cant take this anymore . seriously . i just wish haziq could see my future , see my intentions , see my sincereness . i need a break :"(

Thursday, December 1, 2011

guilt ?

im havingg this feeling of uncertain . haaishh , i love him sooo much . but i cant really give whaat he wants makes me felt reaal sux . i know whaat i did was right . but , waait , right ? he's mad! at mt part , is right . but not as his :(( i jst dun waant that to happen . its nt that i dun trust him . buut , haaishh :(( i dun wanna lose him :( pleaase god . i wanna prove my mum wrong too .
i wanna take good care of him , pleaase :( i really do .
he's only who i got now . ive lost my friends . i dun wanna lose him :(
im sry i couldnt give what u want now . its just not the right time yet . pleaase .