ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!! fck !! PKM !! ADEQ AKU MCM SIAL ! SUME ORANG DLM RUMAH NI MCM SIAL ! PKM PKM PKM PKM PKM !!! sial ahh zan , sayang kau gile babi , sayang kau mcm mane aku sayang haziq , kau lagi nak sial dgn aku ehhhh ? ehhh2 , sial ahhhhh . melampau siaaaa . kau nak kenot dgn aku psl nonok kan .. kau simpan ahh sial . pkm , ehh2 , geram siaaa dgn kau zann ! sakit hati siaaa , sumpah ! tkpe , one day kasih malu sama mak lu peyh muke k . nnt kau selamat nyaaa , no worries . KAU PEYH PASAL , AKU SUME KENE . KAU PEYH PASAL , MAK KAU NAIK KEPALE DGN AKU . EHH SIAAAL AHH ZANN ! BERSYUKUR LAA PKM DGN APE YANG KAU DAA ADE ! SIAL !

ehhh siaaal ahhh , ni haziq pun mane aku tk thu ! pagi2 bngn beh fb ? aku text tak thu reply perrr !
ehhh siaaaal ahhhh gini , HAAIS !!! GY MAMPOS AHH SIAL DGN SUME !!!!!

Like i said dude , words are not everything(": 

youre being too negative nowadays . and blaming me instead .

 i shut the fuck up and let you in , because wanna save from fights .

 But actually it got worse . It rotting ur mind(": 

nvm , lesson learnt right . 

Hey haziq , believe it or not , i nvr loved like how i did to you .

 you were the one who thought me love . 

you know my past , u should understand what i meant (":

 Remember what i told u when the first few times we known each other ?

 that words are thing to me . i nvr regret what i did , dun make me regret what i did .

 Remember how hard you get me and you still got me till now .

 Remember you said we built a nice castle and you wouldnt wanna ruin it and build again . 

Remember ? (": we stayed strong together . you scold the hell out of me , anywhere anytime you want , and i still stay . 

You insulted me and still are , i still stay(": 

You treated me like a trash(thats what i felt) i still stay .

 Well whats worse ? you called me a dog(": 

and i still stay and gave you an option still . 

cant you see how much you meat to me ? 

You called me sundal , i still can take it cuz my mum used to say that to me last time 

. But no one in my entire life called me a dog .

 Nvr had a guy , Straight guy i mean , ever abused me . 

I still stay sayang . im not saying im regretting this .

 I just dun wanna lose you and at the same time i cant bare to be treated like now .

Remember how perfectly you treat me when we are just 1-2 months ago ? I

 put all my trust and love on you . 

Remember what i told you during that time ? That i will forever and always love you (":

i just hate it when u get mad at something and u threw ur tantrums on me . 

and i still shut the fck up cuz i dun wanna cause anything worse . 

When you got no gudang , out of the blue your mood swings and you strted to scold the hell out of you . 

Love is everything , happiness , respecting , protecting , 

and willing to take just any risk for our love ones . 

Love is not just the feeling . I need the old you , old us back :"/

i just need you .

hey im sad , im down :( idk who to talk to . i reallyreally need to get out . hais  idk what to do . any ideas ? lol , am i like asking you ? well i did . hahais . patah seribu . daa laaa , no mood to blog . he woke up just after when i texted him yesterday . saying that im scared . he didnt reply but instead he's facebooking(": nvm , hahais . sometimes i just felt that i dun mean a thing (": peace .

Wow , its been soo long did i post a thing in my bloggy . Hmm , well im bored now , got ntg to do , soo i shall do blogging ? (: 

Alrights, lets story out my life jyeaaa^^ well , where should i start first ? 

Ohh jyeaaa ! Yesterday was our 7Monthsary ! ^^ but i was at home while baby's outside . 

But nvm, i understand that he went out to meet his friends and since we already met the day before which is on the friday . 

Well , im good . Fine with it(: since its been a long time he didnt meet his brothers .

 Errmm , im actually kinda sad that i lost adeq again . 

Haishh , well yesterday i dreamt about him , i saw him outside and wanting to hug him cuz i was freakingly missing him soo bad . But whats sad is that, he walked off without even staring at him .

 He took a glance and walked off . 

Well , thats just a dream . I hope i wouldnt come true that bad ? :( He knows im the type of person who doesnt like to otp with friends . wanna talk ? lets meet .

 He knows that . But .. ? idk ehh . Maybe its just me .

 But i heard that he's happy now with his new ITE friends . 

Well , i hope he did . He's the only friend of all that knows me well .

 He's just like my father . Though theres times that he's sucha fcked up , but i admit , he's the best . Everything he did to me in the past , was really for my own good .

He respects me , listens to me, treat me like no one ever did, knows what i want or wanted.

Protect me, fight for me, win for me, willing to take risk for me. OMG .

someone who's willing to do anything for me.

IVE LOST SOMEONE REALLY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME

 No one ever did care for me like he did :'( 

he said , " sayang die mcm mataer , rindu die mcm bapak aku , manjekan die , die buat aku gini " that was his last words . OMG , yaa allah . Ape aku bikin ni . 

He's fine now with haziq , he accept and respect my decision , and i did this ?! YAA ALLAH , tolong laaa kembalikan AMIRUL AMAN kepade ku !!

This is the last picture we took during the 3months holiday after our N-lvls.