everything really happens for a fucking unreasonable reason :'(

the moment when you miss someone soo badly that u actually cried while viewing their pictures , videos , hugging the bear soo tightly hoping he would be here saying i love you and miss you more than you do (":

but jyeaaa , unfortunately that's all fairy tales . Reality , it's soo cruel and broke me really hard. i cant take this any futher . i really gotta let this out . its not baby's fault . im not blamingg youu or whatsoever . But darling , im super hurt . i tried not to think about her . But (": im just not strong  enough . 

EVERYTHING HAPENS FOR A REASON . HELL JYEAAA :"(

no wonder kaw rase ragu dgn akuu . no wonder kaw takot 
. NO  W O N D E R ! :"(

was fuckingly thought you wouldnt be doing what u know i did . Very Highly Expect . omg , i cant forget about it . youre forgiven , but this past just couldnt be erased off easily from me . only if i dun read it in the first place . just i know i shouldnt read it . i know i should have trust you . BUT , too bad that you had someone who can do better than you , actually read it too and knew about it MYSELF TOO . FML! i cant believe this . tonight he's workingg . im alone . left heartbroken . FCK MAN !!! WHAT THE FUCK AQILAH !! URGHHHHHH !! I CANT BEAR TO PUT A FAKE SMILE ANYMORE NOW . YAA ALLAH , KUATKAN LAA AKUU !  :"(((((((((( 

its true you know her first , and why would u wanna have me if u already have ain right ? yes , thats on ur mind . but well , you should know the answer . im a girl like her . i do what she did to get someone we love . didnt u say all girls are the same ? i didnt go baby here and there . sayangg here and there . omg . i cant forget abt this . i really cant . it been hunting my mind ! my soul :"(  she said just text if theres anything . idk if u really did text or not . i dun wanna know PLEASE ! im sick of heartbreakings and tears ! you chat with her and u deleted the chat , thats why i couldnt find her . and thats why too you dare exchange passwords . im not accusing , but isnt it obvious sayangg ? its true thats she's too late . its true that im already urs and ure already mine . BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE WHEN U BABY HERE AND THERE WITH HER ! patot kaw ragu dgn akuu . patot kaw taak percaye dgn akuu . PATOT LAAA SAYANGG .