He's away now. And i'm all alone being too bored sick here. I honestly wanna know how can he have the guts to have fun when i'm here sick, and facing this alone all day and night. I mean, of course i don't want to be the reason he spoil his day because of me. I would be super grateful if he did though. But i mean, knowing that i'm sick for days and nights, you can still scold me and not taking care of me. By just asking how am i, is that the way you show you cared, actually? I'm not asking for anything. But, did you actually realized what you did? Like yesterday night, 14September2012. After you send me home from RSH. I talkbox-ed you. And you said you was tired and i didn't understand you. But you went too well with your friends. You laughed, and talked like normal. But why when it comes to me, you gave me that dead voice? OMG seriously, what do you take me as? I know i can't afford to make you happy like how your friends did. I'm not as good as your friends. I know i'm even not your first priority. But dude, at least treat me right and tell me how you take me as? TELL ME. But lately, your actions shows that i don't really mean a thing. I'm like your side-lines. Aren't i? (': It's alright, i have to force myself not to love you 100% even though i've lost it to you.