love yourself

Hey, im currently on a rest of revising. Got soo tired and eyes are paining. 

Thought of resting for awhile. While resting, lets post a blog jyeaaa ;) 

well , after all the thoughts i had, i guess i shouldnt be the way i am last few nights past . 

I study should study at night and not to go internet . 

Well, besides then resting hours. 

I would rather post it here then i find someone to talk at night right?(:

 Dun wanna disturb atika and dun wanna disappoint hubby as well .

 He's busy working and im supposed to support him and do a great job as a faithful, loyal and sincere girlfriend ;) I really love him a lot. 

I swear i cant see him with other girls . I dun wanna have third parties.

 I freakingly HATE THIRD PARTY SOOO FREAKING MUCH.

 soo well, i hope this will maintain because i know he wont play me out. 

I have confidence in myself. And thats why too i thought i gotta change and be loyal and sincere. 

No more old aqilah used to play guys out and not freaking a single care about them, their feelings(: 

im new me , new aqilah who loves her hubby, Muhammad NurHaziq Bin Hamdan sooosooo much.

 Despite whatever had happened, i just cant hate you for long and i cant even let u go.

 Cause hey hubby, i loved you too much. I dun wanna be apart from you.

 You were the one who didnt give up and tried and stay to win my heart and you did. 

You did everything and anything to win my heart. You took a real good care of me. 

Till ayah was pleased. I was soo precious to you back then. Was soo a princess. 

Hope ur love will grow like mine to yours. Iloveyousoomuch and i love rifqah soo much too. 

I remember i cried when i first saw her. She touches my heart and she made me love her soo much.

 But whats more is that, i love myself more :P because i can see a change in me. 

You, hubby, changed me. A lot. You made me a patient, loving and more understanding lady. 

Because to be frank, i wasnt like that back then. I saw soo freaking heartless till people say i got no feelings at all. See how bad was i ? LOL , thank you soo much hubby for making me reason the REAL me . He got me a brown bag that i wanted soo much. He gave what i need and also what i need. Other people may not understand why i still stay. Well, it doesnt matter right? What matters most is that, i got my own reasons why i stayed and still loving you(":

loneliness night

Day by day , night by nights im getting a lil restless. I know i shouldnt be insecure . He's working, not flirting . In the day, he's sleeping all day. I dun mind. But jyeaaa, yes i dont. But he somehow had changed. Not as sweet , as lovely as last time when we known each other . Well, idk how to say this, but im just .. idk . I just need him in my life. Not friends neither family. He was my first priority , but i wasnt his first. But its alright. I dun ask for that . I just need and want the old Muhammad NurHaziq Bin Hamdan. I miss him soosoo badly much :"( cried myself to sleep every single night. Idk what went wrong, idk whats not enough, idk what my mistakes are .My mood went down each night . deeper and deeper down . i cant help it . But now, as days changes , he made me realise that i can go through a day without his text, his call . I felt like the old me is coming back slowly, where idc about others neither mine(": heartless much huhh ? jyeaa, that was me last time. But still, i know i gotta takecare of his heart no matter what. But haziq .... hais , nvm i gotta be strong. Biar orang buat kte, jgn kte buat org(": pesaan ayah yang tak mungkin aku lupe. 

Sometimes i ever thought of killing myself, jump from a high building. LOL , but guess its not worth it . I might just live my own life with friends while he's busy .. because im always and forever here for him, loving him without change. He's gonna scold or have moodswings, i just gotta be strong. A test from God right?(": i can do this aqilah. Iloveyou(":